To be quite honest, I would quit now. You don't seem to understand variance or the theory of odds. The only hand you can NEVER lose with is a Royal Flush. Every other hand, flop, preflop, turn, and river can be beat. You are going to lose many hands in tournaments and in cash game. If you can't seem to stomach that, then quit playing poker for money. Another thing to consider is how many times did you suck out on someone else? How many of those actually went to showdown so you could verify you sucked out? How many times have you flopped a set against an over pair and won the hand?