Ringo, this may be a good time to reflect on your priorities. You have a wife and daughter. You have an easily treatable medical condition. I'm assuming you have a home and food and a job. My father used to say, "I once complained that I had no shoes, until I met a man who had no feet." It sounds like you have been under an incredible amount of stress lately, and maybe a timeout is what you need, to unwind and start appreciating what you have. If you continuously take out your stress and fear by lashing out at those around you with anger, you will very likely lose everything you care about. Wife, children, home, poker.. Poker and this forum should not matter more than taking care of you and your loved ones.