I didn't answer the question to this thread. So I will now. No I am not happy. I am trying like you wouldn't believe but it just is not working. I am everything but happy. Now can any body explain this and help me? Or is happiness a personal thing that only comes from within?

When we depend on others and other things to make us happy, is it not temporary? Is that not the kind of happiness that washes away when those things are gone? So then how can we find true happiness? The kind that comes from within in us? Because things and other people seem to always let us down.

I all too often find myself saying, "as soon as this or that comes or happens every thing will be so much better.? But when those things come, it is then something else I am waiting for. Should I not be happy in the moment before the moment passes me by? As tomorrow never comes..... How ever can we let go of the mistakes we have made and love ourselves for who we are and be happy? When every day I live and those things of regret stare me in the face and never go away. However can we live happy when it seems that all of the things we live for are gone. What does life have for us? Aside of pain and tears.