A Sad Moment!

[KaciBlakely]

So I think everyone knows I'm a good person here.

I really hope you guys get a sense of that sense I've been on the forum.

Anyways this is hard for me to admit, but I am saying it because I feel comfortable and hopefully I will be able to get some support from my Ndn family.

My husband and I have decided to separate.

We have already agreed on custody rights.

I don't think he wanted to be a father and everyday I've gotten a bit bigger, I think he just realized how real it was getting.

I wish I would've loved someone else at times, but I know I'm going to be thankful for him to getting me pregnant and blessing me with my child.

It's just hard right now, so if I don't seem the happiest I will be getting better I assure you.

I'm moving in with my parents right now, and all will be well with them.

They are so supportive, but before I start crying over this thread, I'm just going to post it.

Thanks for your support in advance, you ndn family members are great.

[GloBug]

well lady u have the best interest in yourself and your child so thats all that counts. my mom raised me as a single mother and i think i turned out good. im not sure if things will turn out the way they are suppose to be when u have a child but i guarantee u will be better off by yoursellf then to be around someone that isnt happy. good for u. and hormones will end when u have the child. there are other things that u might have issues with but u will have a clear head. u think u and him made a good decsion because unhappiness a baby can sense. u would be amazed. keep strong girlfriend.

[nodepositneeded]

That's why I was okay with him walking out, if he doesn't want to be here, I don't want to force him to stay and all of us be unhappy. But hopefully he'll come grow some balls and come back.

I'm a little upset, so pardon the rudeness if you guys felt that last comment was rude.

If not I think we'll be okay with the support of everyone I have.

Is there a way to change my username though, NDN?

I am sorry to hear about this Kaci.

Yes it is possible to change your username. Send me a private message if you'd like to change it and I will be happy to do so.

[KaciBlakely]

Okay I will be thinking about that very hard.

I probably will though.

[eejit101]

KacilovesEejit

has a ring to tit

[KaciBlakely]

I'll do that for so many chips, lol.

But I don't think you could afford it.

It will be 200 chips.

I already have a name I am thinking about.

But thanks for the suggestion.

lmfao.

[BnLM5]

Well the door is still open for him.

I'm not giving up on him yet.

I love him and am just realizing that he might not be here, for our child.

Which breaks my heart, but I have to do what's best for my unborn son.

And that's to make sure both of us are taken care of.

And to figure his father out later.

I'll give him up to until my son turns 1 to make up his decision and if he's out, than he is going to be out.

I've talked to many people and they seem to think, 14 months from now is enough time for him to make up his mind.

I'm not gonna feel sorry for him, if 5 years from now, he changes his mind.

Well I don't think I will, but I'm typing this and I'm hormonal so I might change my mind.

I'm just greatful I have the support of my family and my ndn family.

You know Kaci a lot of things go on around here, some things are nice and some things are not. But the bottom line is that when the going gets tough for any one of us we all stick together. That is the greatest part of our NDN family.

[KaciBlakely]

I agree one hundred percent.

I love NDN for that particular reason.

There are so many things NoDepositNeeded has offered us here, and the last thing I expected to find at this site is the most important thing to me.

I never dreamed of finding a group of people that could be so compassionate and caring about how other people are doing.

I'm glad and truly discovered this for the first time on Kitty's bc thread.

It's great that we could all be apart of something so much bigger than this site was first meant to.

I know we get rewarded through the chip system, but I'd post with or without the system in place because I have grown to care about the members here and I think most people here have too.

[GloBug]

I agree one hundred percent.

I love NDN for that particular reason.

There are so many things NoDepositNeeded has offered us here, and the last thing I expected to find at this site is the most important thing to me.

I never dreamed of finding a group of people that could be so compassionate and caring about how other people are doing.

I'm glad and truly discovered this for the first time on Kitty's bc thread.

It's great that we could all be apart of something so much bigger than this site was first meant to.

I know we get rewarded through the chip system, but I'd post with or without the system in place because I have grown to care about the members here and I think most people here have too.

oh stop it your gonna make me cry.

[KaciBlakely]

oh stop it your gonna make me cry.

I hope it isn't sarcasm.

I really do appreciate the members here.

I'm sure you've grown to appreciate all of us too.

That's why I commented.

And thanks for all the support I have received on this thread.

It's fantastic, and it does make me feel better when I am down during the day.

[GloBug]

I hope it isn't sarcasm.

I really do appreciate the members here.

I'm sure you've grown to appreciate all of us too.

That's why I commented.

And thanks for all the support I have received on this thread.

It's fantastic, and it does make me feel better when I am down during the day.

no im serious. i agree with u about the forum. its great here. it gives u a outside look into situations that u might have. like getting a 3rd opinion from a doctor. as for this thread. you know i have mixed feelings about what happened to you. i understand both sides. its tough i know but all of it will work out in the end. so hey when are u gonna post a pic of u. i think now is a good time as any. since i think u trust us now.

[KaciBlakely]

Oh no!

Posting a pic doesn't matter if I trust anyone or not.

I just am waiting for me to give birth and you'll get to see my baby and me.

Instead of just me, and my pregnant belly.

That's what I was waiting for globug.

I don't think taking pictures now that I'm pregnant.

I look different and it feels weird, lol.

[freeringo]

Oh no!

Posting a pic doesn't matter if I trust anyone or not.

I just am waiting for me to give birth and you'll get to see my baby and me.

Instead of just me, and my pregnant belly.

That's what I was waiting for globug.

I don't think taking pictures now that I'm pregnant.

I look different and it feels weird, lol.

We want to see your glow before you lose it.
Before and after pictures is what we want.

[eejit101]

Take a picture of an interesting tree and post that too please

[KaciBlakely]

I don't have a glow.

I'm just bigger than I normally am.

I have taken family photos and will take pictures after.

Maybe, just maybe I'll do this, a bit later.

I'm thinking I will be posting it, in the next few days.

Just let me straighten my hair, put make up on, etc.

You guys will get your way.

And eejit, you are so funny.

I hope you didn't mean that in a mean way, it sounded weird.

And offhanded, and like it didn't belong in this thread, but that's just me.

[woohoosue]

kaci im so sorry to hear this...I hope things have settled down for u and youve made yourself as comfortable at home as u can.... yup making decessions pregnant is scarey cuz you are not always sure you are thinking clearly.... but to be angry and making them is doubly worse ...so take your time.... dont worry about putting him on a time table ..your heart will let you know what kind of limits he can place on you... thinking of the baby and yourself is what u need to be doing.... all the advice so far sounds real sound.... kudos to your parents for stepping up ..you got some good ones make sure they know it......
I would do just as u are doing ....let him do what he is gonna do.... you can not make anyone want you....
I'm sure it is like Glo said....he's confused ...that is no excuse ..but it is an indicator of his character... so keep this in mind when dealing with him.
He too will be getting lots of advice and let's hope that he and you too .... be as honest as you can with each other about the way you want things to be.... it sounds like this maybe hios first time being honest about how he feels ... better to know now thatn later ...and you two can find away to love and care for this baby seperately or together .... so dont let that sway you into being with him if it turns out that is not meant to be....
hey the cubs just went into first in their league today .... if they can do it there is hope for so many things...
You have to look at it this way ...you were lucky enuf to be a woman .... half your battle to happiness is taken care of .. men are a mess ....
ok stay strong!

[KaciBlakely]

kaci im so sorry to hear this...I hope things have settled down for u and youve made yourself as comfortable at home as u can.... yup making decessions pregnant is scarey cuz you are not always sure you are thinking clearly.... but to be angry and making them is doubly worse ...so take your time.... dont worry about putting him on a time table ..your heart will let you know what kind of limits he can place on you... thinking of the baby and yourself is what u need to be doing.... all the advice so far sounds real sound.... kudos to your parents for stepping up ..you got some good ones make sure they know it......
I would do just as u are doing ....let him do what he is gonna do.... you can not make anyone want you....
I'm sure it is like Glo said....he's confused ...that is no excuse ..but it is an indicator of his character... so keep this in mind when dealing with him.
He too will be getting lots of advice and let's hope that he and you too .... be as honest as you can with each other about the way you want things to be.... it sounds like this maybe hios first time being honest about how he feels ... better to know now thatn later ...and you two can find away to love and care for this baby seperately or together .... so dont let that sway you into being with him if it turns out that is not meant to be....
hey the cubs just went into first in their league today .... if they can do it there is hope for so many things...
You have to look at it this way ...you were lucky enuf to be a woman .... half your battle to happiness is taken care of .. men are a mess ....
ok stay strong!

Thanks sue!

I appreciate your kind words.

I'm at home with my parents, while I'm on maternity leave from work.

Apparently I was forced to leave the workplace by my doctor and employees so I just get online and do nothing all day long.

I love doing cross word puzzles to pass my time though.

I'm taking my time making decisions.

I believe he is going to not be in the baby's life though.

That's his choice but I won't deny him a chance to see his son.

I don't hate him that much.

And it's not fair for our son to shut his father out of his life.

At least in my opinion, I don't think it'd be fair to either one of them.

And I will be staying strong but thank you guys very much for the kind thoughts and regards.