Okay I've kind of stayed away from talking on this thread so I could collect my thoughts on the subject and so not to be harsh with what I'm about to say about my mother and father.

I'm from a military family and I moved around alot so that was part of the reason I think that I thought they were horrible parents growing up but I have since changed my mind.

I'm also a middle child therefore I always felt like I was just got stuck and never got anything I wanted just because.

Unlike my other sisters because My older sister got anything because she was first born.

And my younger sister got anything she wanted because she was the baby.

I felt this was unfair my entire life because even though they told us they loved us equally, this always stood out to me for some reason.

That's the one thing I'm fearful of in having children.

I never want my child/future children to ever feel inadequate in relation to his/her/their siblings like I did when I was growing up.

Since this happened I have a hard time talking to my parents and it may seem something stupid to fight over, but it's ccontinued from things growing up to finding it hard to converse to my parents about important things because I feel like they would just not care to listen.

It's personally hard to have a good relationship with my parents and it is something I have to work at everyday.

It sucks sometimes, most of the time, but it's life and you have to deal with it.