BC

[Pokerkitty6]

Hi all!!! A few nights ago I told a few of you that I had something to say and I would tell you when I am ready. Well tonight I feel ready to share. I have grade 3 invasive poorly diferentiated ductal type mammory carcenoma. In other words, I have breast cancer. It's freaking me out. Within the next two weeks I will be having a radical double masectomy. Some of my words may be spelled wrong, but you get the idea. It sucks because I have beautiful 36C tits. I mean they are f'in nice. I will undergo reconstruction at the same time and I think I am going to get me some bigger tits. What do ya'll think about 36D? My husband smiles everytime I say it!!!! When I am down and out, my hubby, Tony has been instructed by me to play some of my games. Feel free to ask is that you Tony or Renee? We will be honest with you. My doctors says I should be back to playing golf 6-12 months down the road. I'll just have to learn how to regrip with bigger tits. I probably have to grip the shaft and squeze my tits together. All humor aside, this is very serious for me. I thought I would just like to share my feelings with my NDN family. This site has and will continue to be a blessing for me, especially now, to keep my mind off of things and learn from others experience. I am still working in the golf shop and have my job secured when I have recovered enough to go back to work. Until then, I'll just keep happy thoughts in my head. Cheers and I'll c-ya at the tables!!!!

[Lilred36]

WOW!Thats great KITTY congrats,I'm sure your gonna enjoy it whenever ya decide to open it.

[woohoosue]

i agree ..either way the gift says what all of us are thinking for u......HOORAY! to be threw this hard leg of your recovery! any day u choose will be the best day to do it.....HOOOORAY!

[Pokerkitty6]

Hi all! It's been a while...had my first colonoscopy and no colon cancer! I had surgery yesterday to remove my ovary and good news no ovarian cancer! Bad news is I just got my Pet scan results back and it shows 2 enlarged lymph nodes in my chest wall. I go in for a Cat scan on Wed. I have never had a cat scan before so I really don't know what the difference is...It's scary, but I plan on winning!!! In the mean time I have been keeping my mind off of it by playing slots at inetbet and poker at tilt and stars. No cash outs, but enjoying my time spent there. I love the new rush poker at tilt, you'll have to check it out. Peace and love sent your way!

[BnLM5]

I love you PK!

[woohoosue]

Hope You Got an "all clear" from the CAT scan.....Be strong!

[Pokerkitty6]

Thanks all! It looks like my breast expanders are causing my lymph node inflammation. Just to be sure my doctor is keeping a close eye on me. I should have my "real implant" surgery scheduled soon. This has been a long road and I appreciate you all coming along on the ride.

[BnLM5]

OMG, thank God! I have been worried. I am so glad to hear that or read that whatever it is I am so glad!!!!! You have had a tough battle but you won, PK you won!!!! Finally some tears of joy! I knew you could do it! Thanks for the update! And your friendship!!!! I love you PK even though I have never met you in person you are my kind of friend and I love you!!!! I will continue to pray for you and your family. (Tony, Marissa, and your brother)

[Pokerkitty6]

Hey Ladies! You know your girls best! Touch them, feel them, know them. Get your partner involved, it's alot more fun that way! Stay up on your mammograms. Today I am having my tissue expanders removed and my big girl implants put in. Wish me luck!

[BnLM5]

Good luck PK! But mostly have fun with em! Your the best and I love ya! You are one tough cookie! ; ) And thank you!

[Pokerkitty6]

Hey all! Just an update...my implants are the biggest they make 800 cc's, but on me they are not as big as they would be on a normal girl. Hahaha, I'm not normal, we all already knew that! The doc had to cut out so much tissue from my chest wall the implant has to take up some space inside my chest as well, thats why they call it breast reconstruction. I am a very large C cup or a small D cup....time will tell once they settle. I had a Pet Scan last week and it shows no cancer, just a 2.2 cm mass in front of my heart. Today I get a call I have to have a Cat Scan tomorrow to find out more about the mass, depending on the mass the doc may send me to a lung specialist. I'm soooooo confused right now, I'm not sure which way to turn. At least we're getting back to our poker tournaments to take my mind off all of this! Update on my neice Marissa, she is very close to being reunified with her Dad! They love each other so much and as I said before she belongs with her father. I will miss her and she will be in my life ALOT!!!!! As usual, thanks for listening. xoxoxo

[nodepositneeded]

Kitty
I am so sorry for what you have been through ,I am a firm believer that Positive thinking goes a long way when you are battling Cancer .I am a big girl too and I am sure 'normal implants' would get lost in my armpits somewhere too lol.How are you feeling?I have a friend who lost both breasts to Cancer and last two years have been difficult ,she just started her reconstruction about 3 months ago.You made it this far ,I am sure the Mass is worrying you but please stay strong for now and think good things!

Tracy

[nodepositneeded]

Just wanted to say as the owner of 42DD and weighing 160 pounds I wanted to get a reduction .I hated my breasts because I am top heavy and buying a dress to fit my boobs means i am wearing a flour sack on the bottom.If it were not for my husband's attachment to them i would be very happy as a 36B .My friend wore bags of water in her bra for a week thinking she wanted bigger and thank god she didn't go that route.I will say additional prayers for your back ,neck and shoulders lol

[Pokerkitty6]

Ha! Tracy you're funny. I wanted the bigger the better....but something is better than nothing. I do have some nice clevage, I just have to get used to them. Now my husband is ready to do some shots !!!! I feel good and have a positive attitude, I'm just tired of all the scans and doctors. Too many scans can kill ya. Then one day hearing about my heart, the next my lungs and they don't really know what it is. I'm having my Cat Scan now at 7:45 in the morning. I'm not sure if this is the right decision or not. Does your friend have triple negative bc? That's what I have and it's hard to learn about. For example, it is ok for me to have dairy? I get caught up on the internet and loose a grip on all the information out there. Last year, I said I'm looking forward to 2010, now I say I'm looking forward to 2011. I really need a break from all the appointments. Thanks for listening, this has really become kind of like my bc diary...

[taylovesthebeatles]

Hooray for new boobies! I'm always praying for you, sis, remember that. I'm glad Marissa is getting back with her dad. I know you will miss her but I do hope you'll get to see her and be as involved in her life as you want to be. Please keep us updated.

And also enjoy the pictures for me, ok? Love you!

[Pokerkitty6]

Hey all! I'm going to the hospital tomorrow for a biospy of my tymus gland. Never even heard of it til last week. I'll probably be spending the night and will be back online as soon as I feel better. Lets all do a shot and say a prayer my cancer is not back! It's a pretty scary surgery in the morning, c-ya soon!

[taylovesthebeatles]

Hey all! I'm going to the hospital tomorrow for a biospy of my tymus gland. Never even heard of it til last week. I'll probably be spending the night and will be back online as soon as I feel better. Lets all do a shot and say a prayer my cancer is not back! It's a pretty scary surgery in the morning, c-ya soon!

I'll definitely do a shot for you, sis! And I'll send up some prayers too, how's that? I love you!

[woohoosue]

Kisses and huggs Kitty!
i will do a jagermiester or a captain morgan (but only if I'm out of Jager) lol
no worries girl .....more huggs and kisses

[Olymokes]

Hope you start to feel better very soon Pokerkitty6! Will keep you in my thoughts. You have had such a positive attitude in your post by looking forward to the following years and thats the best thing to do. Always look forward and take care.. Olymokes

[Pokerkitty6]

Thanks you to you both. I'm back home now. Dr. John Brock had to abort my procedure because once he got in there he realized it was too dangerous. My enlarged tymus gland is sitting directly on top of my heart and between my lungs. It sucks! Now we are going to wait until October and do another scan to see what it says. If it says the same thing I don't even want to think about it...Thanks again to you all for your support, love, and prayers. xoxoxoxoxoxo

[BnLM5]

Ohhhh PK! I am just able to get back on line this am. I was lost for words for a moment so I stopped and prayed for you! Keep your head up PK and don't let stress make you sick. Go to those appointments like you own them and stay strong in your fight! I will keep praying for you and I will pass it on as well. Love to you PK!!!

[taylovesthebeatles]

Oh honey I love you! I will get as many prayers for you as possible!

[SlotQQueen54]

Hi all!!! A few nights ago I told a few of you that I had something to say and I would tell you when I am ready. Well tonight I feel ready to share. I have grade 3 invasive poorly diferentiated ductal type mammory carcenoma. In other words, I have breast cancer. It's freaking me out. Within the next two weeks I will be having a radical double masectomy. Some of my words may be spelled wrong, but you get the idea. It sucks because I have beautiful 36C tits. I mean they are f'in nice. I will undergo reconstruction at the same time and I think I am going to get me some bigger tits. What do ya'll think about 36D? My husband smiles everytime I say it!!!! When I am down and out, my hubby, Tony has been instructed by me to play some of my games. Feel free to ask is that you Tony or Renee? We will be honest with you. My doctors says I should be back to playing golf 6-12 months down the road. I'll just have to learn how to regrip with bigger tits. I probably have to grip the shaft and squeze my tits together. All humor aside, this is very serious for me. I thought I would just like to share my feelings with my NDN family. This site has and will continue to be a blessing for me, especially now, to keep my mind off of things and learn from others experience. I am still working in the golf shop and have my job secured when I have recovered enough to go back to work. Until then, I'll just keep happy thoughts in my head. Cheers and I'll c-ya at the tables!!!!

God be with you Kitty..Keep up the positive attitude!

[Pokerkitty6]

This is the latest....I have not returned to work yet and my job is there whenever I need it. My golf club is my biggest support system ever. I haven't played golf in almost 1 1/2 years and its driving me nuts! My clubs are sitting in the living room right by the door for when I get the ok to play from the dr!!!! I still have my port and that really sucks. Dr. Brock wants to see my scan in Oct.,if it lights up, take implants out, saw breast bone in half, get biopsy of thymus gland, put new implants in and take about 3 months to heal. If it comes back as cancer, its probably all over my body being in that particular area. Then I decide, go back in remove implants, saw bone and take out thymus....or just deal with it and take chemo and radiation for another 6 months. Sounds like I'm pretty much screwed either way. So, I lifted my head up, said a prayer and hopefully next week getting a second opinion from the Shands Cancer Center in Gainesville, Fl. They are supposed to be one of the best in our state and they are also affiliated with the Mayo in Jacksonville. My back has been killing me by my kidneys for a couple of days and I just say GOD please take my cancer away and please keep my organs working. In the mean time, I'm just playing poker and being nosey on my facebook page. Have a blessed day and thanks for listening....

[vickid]

well kitty it has been a long time since i have been on hear and it sadens me to still see u struggling but my prayers are with u and i hope for the best and im glad you are still in good spirts

[BnLM5]

How's it going PK?