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[targetguy1]

pitty keep up the strong fight and if the chemo is the trick to playing better poker i might have to look in to it. they way you and lilred played was awesome.

keep being strong girl as you know you have the ndn forum behind you with this battle.

[woohoosue]

ahh kitty ..im sure some of it could be worry about you too. but please take good care of yourself, i wish your family the best dealing with all of this. I hope they can find a way to give her some relief in dealing with whatever shes dealing with. Do not stress yourself. you cant help but be concerned for her but you are doing everything you can for her and that's all you can do. Be well.

[ffcowboy76]

Wow, Kitty. I missed this whole story, up until today. Sorry to hear about everything and I'm glad you are dealing with all of the problems life seems to be throwing at you right now. I wish you the best in the future with your health.

[BnLM5]

PK you know that BiPolar or Manic depression if necessary can be treated with meds. Obviously Marissa is having a difficult time and if it is a chemical imbalance she is unable to control that, but meds. can help. But if it is multiple personalities disorder than that is a different story. I am not sure how that is treated. Maybe she needs a Dr. too and not just counseling. Maybe Marissa should write 3 things a day that she likes about herself and or 3 things a day that she is good at and or 3 things a day that she is blessed with. It may help her to think positive more often. Which sounds like positive is what she needs.

Now how about you. Chemo today, sucked I am sure. Hope you are feeling well and not to sick. Did the web sites give you any help at all. I hope they did. If anything a good understanding of what is going on. I know how doctors can sometime not explain things too well. They dread me coming in for an appointment. Because I ask so many questions. I ask questions until I am satisfied. Here recently my daughter was going to the doctor because they were saying that she had kidney problems. I knew pretty much what the problem was but I did not say anything. So I did some extensive research on my own and wrote out a report about what I thought with the information and resources to back it up and took it with us the next visit to the Doc. And I showed the Dr. with great respect of their expertise and asked if they would take a look at it, by the time we left the Dr. office the Dr. was sure that I was correct and that it was not a kidney problem at all. The Dr. even asked me if they could have the copy of the report I made. I couldn't believe it. It made me feel good any way and my daughter got better. So that just goes to show you that you can never ask too many questions or do enough research. Especially when it is you they are dealing with. You have every right to know exactly what is going on. Hang in there. I prayed for you today! Lot's of love Pk from me to you and your family.

[Pokerkitty6]

Thanks B...yes your link did help me alot. You're right about Marissa, and we are going forward as much as the goverment will let us. She is still a "state child". Chemo is rough so they changed my nasuea medicine again. I wish I could just smoke pot, but i can't. Rocketman told me about a pill that has thc in it and I asked for it today. Unfortunately, the thc pill and medical marijuana is illegal in the state of Florida. Can't blame me for asking though. I'm half way done, only three more treatments, then I can have my ovary removed and breath a little easier. Love you all for helping me through this!

[Lilred36]

I wish I could fly,
I would be in Ocala
to get you high
everytime I think of you I sigh
I wish you the best
as you are
stonger than the rest

[BnLM5]

Thanks B...yes your link did help me alot. You're right about Marissa, and we are going forward as much as the goverment will let us. She is still a "state child". Chemo is rough so they changed my nasuea medicine again. I wish I could just smoke pot, but i can't. Rocketman told me about a pill that has thc in it and I asked for it today. Unfortunately, the thc pill and medical marijuana is illegal in the state of Florida. Can't blame me for asking though. I'm half way done, only three more treatments, then I can have my ovary removed and breath a little easier. Love you all for helping me through this!

PK, you had the ultra sound today, right? I realize that the complete tests results won't be back for a few days. Monday maybe? But did the radiologist/or technician that did the ultrasound say anything at all? Gosh I hate that! And the waiting game is not a game I am good at either. But one thing for sure is when the Dr. reads the ultra sound, if there is anything at all out of norm he will call you right away. So if you look at it, in this way, it will be much easier to deal with. It's kind of one of those things where "no news is good news".

I doubt you will have anything on your ovary though, as the ultra sound is what would be done in any single given situation of the Brca test results. Which those test results do not say that you have ovarian cancer. Just the genes, and in this case the mutations. Which is already evident as you are doing away with breast cancer as we speak. Every one of us have cells of cancer in our bodies and in in every body there is a constant process of DNA mutation. As DNA is mutated and damaged by a gross number of factors such as chemicals, UV Rays, smoking and on and on.... None the less free radicals. Sometimes the cells take off and sometimes they don't which also happens for various reasons. So I just think you have some pretty good doctors that are doing a fine job in making sure they are on the ball here! I think of you every single day and I pray for you. I also think about meeting you some time. So on that note I will say good night my friend and I will talk with you later. Give Marissa a smile and hug for me too. Tell her I said hello, if you like.

[Pokerkitty6]

You guys are awesome! lilred, I loved your poem. One day next year I hope we can all have an NDN party! Good times to be held by all. The lady doing my ultrasound said she didn't see any masses, so thats a good sign. Looking forward to a new year when this is all behind me! Oh yeah, got a call from Marissa's teacher today, she is refusing to talk or do her work, so off to the principals office she goes. Wish me luck, I'm going to need it!!!