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[Pokerkitty6]

Hi all!!! A few nights ago I told a few of you that I had something to say and I would tell you when I am ready. Well tonight I feel ready to share. I have grade 3 invasive poorly diferentiated ductal type mammory carcenoma. In other words, I have breast cancer. It's freaking me out. Within the next two weeks I will be having a radical double masectomy. Some of my words may be spelled wrong, but you get the idea. It sucks because I have beautiful 36C tits. I mean they are f'in nice. I will undergo reconstruction at the same time and I think I am going to get me some bigger tits. What do ya'll think about 36D? My husband smiles everytime I say it!!!! When I am down and out, my hubby, Tony has been instructed by me to play some of my games. Feel free to ask is that you Tony or Renee? We will be honest with you. My doctors says I should be back to playing golf 6-12 months down the road. I'll just have to learn how to regrip with bigger tits. I probably have to grip the shaft and squeze my tits together. All humor aside, this is very serious for me. I thought I would just like to share my feelings with my NDN family. This site has and will continue to be a blessing for me, especially now, to keep my mind off of things and learn from others experience. I am still working in the golf shop and have my job secured when I have recovered enough to go back to work. Until then, I'll just keep happy thoughts in my head. Cheers and I'll c-ya at the tables!!!!

[taylovesthebeatles]

I'm really glad you got your Zofran, that's great Kitty! I hope you start feeling better real soon. And definitely stay away from the alcohol- I'll drink some for you tonight how's that?

[BnLM5]

Bouks, I am sooo sorry for your little girl. I wish you only the best, you have alot on your plate right now and you have to be extra strong for your little angel. Tay and B, my girls who I can always count on, thank you for everything. I was in chemo for 4 hours yesterday and today I had to go get a shot to keep my white blood count up. Apparently 24 hours after chemo you will always get this shot. My dr. told me to expect a fever, bone pains, and pain that feels like I might be having a heart attack. I told her I'm glad she told me that or I would think I'm having a panic attack. She told me to stay on my Zanex, I'm probably spelling that wrong. That little pill makes me feel like I'm high, I kinda like it! I got my Zofran for nasuea today, thank God. Those have made me feel better all day. She told me I should not drink alcohol because my liver is being overworked by all the chemo and other meds I'm on. I asked about medical marijuana, but it's not legal in the state of Florida. Hey, you can't blame a girl for asking. I'll just have to be happy with the meds I have. A couple of them aren't that bad! I sure do miss my grapebombs!!! C-ya at the tables!

Well, well, well Pokerkitty I guess I should read a little better next time as I thought you were talking to bouks999. So I am glad that you got your meds for the sickness. And Xxanax and sometimes spelt with only one x and pronounced like >(zanax) is great for anxiety and will make you feel pretty good at first. But please note that Xxanax is highly addictive. I used to take them for anxiety. So just be careful. little oval orange pills if they are the same mg. They are good in a pinch and you my friend are in a pinch. I just want you to be careful from my own experience.

Oh and what is a grapebomb? Just curious. Love ya Kitty, take care hun!

[Pokerkitty6]

Good Morning!! My 2nd day after chemo and I am still a little sick to my stomach, not throwing up, just feel like I could. My port hurt last night. It was stinking me. Is that normal? It feels ok today. I just took a tylenol pm and went back to sleep. I have felt light headed since chemo too. Does that make any sense or is all just in my head. I tell ya this cancer thing still seems like its not real to me, just a bad dream. I applied for short term disability today. I hope that works out. Its hard not getting a paycheck when you're used to it every week. Thanks again everybody for your continued support, I really do appreciate you all!!!

[Pokerkitty6]

Oh yeah B...I would have never thought you would be a whiskey girl, thats my sister's online name. I'll have to get her on NDN soon! A grapebomb is Three Olive grape flavored vodka with red bull. Most people do it as a shot, but I like it as a c o cktail. Cheers!!!! Hey Tay don't forget to drink one for me or two!

[freeringo]

Good Morning!! My 2nd day after chemo and I am still a little sick to my stomach, not throwing up, just feel like I could. My port hurt last night. It was stinking me. Is that normal? It feels ok today. I just took a tylenol pm and went back to sleep. I have felt light headed since chemo too. Does that make any sense or is all just in my head. I tell ya this cancer thing still seems like its not real to me, just a bad dream. I applied for short term disability today. I hope that works out. Its hard not getting a paycheck when you're used to it every week. Thanks again everybody for your continued support, I really do appreciate you all!!!

Get some pot for gods sake.
It will make you feel so much better.

[Pokerkitty6]

I know I should, I want to, but I still have a 10 year old girl living with me and she has a very big mouth. It sure does sound good though. Toke one for me!


psss....replace the word stinking me with stinging me please, my typo as usual...

[freeringo]

I know I should, I want to, but I still have a 10 year old girl living with me and she has a very big mouth. It sure does sound good though. Toke one for me!


psss....replace the word stinking me with stinging me please, my typo as usual...

You tell her and anyone that listens too her that Marijuana is your medicine that will save your life.
You still live in shame of what others think.
Kitty you have earned the right to do what ever you want.
I smoke in front (my bedroom) of my kids and I am honest about every aspect of it.
They are not allowed to smoke until they get out of school.
They know that smoking pot will deminish their ability to learn and learning comes first.
Then they can make any choice they want when they graduate.
Be brave.

[BnLM5]

Good Morning!! My 2nd day after chemo and I am still a little sick to my stomach, not throwing up, just feel like I could. My port hurt last night. It was stinking me. Is that normal? It feels ok today. I just took a tylenol pm and went back to sleep. I have felt light headed since chemo too. Does that make any sense or is all just in my head. I tell ya this cancer thing still seems like its not real to me, just a bad dream. I applied for short term disability today. I hope that works out. Its hard not getting a paycheck when you're used to it every week. Thanks again everybody for your continued support, I really do appreciate you all!!!

Kitty what do you mean that your port hurt last night?

And are you kidding me? Is it just all in your head? No it is not all in your head. You have been hit in the face with an incredibly difficult situation and it sucks! That is a an under statement to be honest. It is terrifying! It is not a thing that we can just take in and go about our merry way. It is difficult to understand? So it makes perfect sense to me that you feel like your having a bad dream and you are feeling light headed. I am actually surprised that you haven't felt light head from just the thoughts going through your head alone. Not to mention the trauma of all this crap. Chemo treatments are nothing nice. It does not matter who you are. And cancer is not a joke. It has got you down, that's a fact.

Now on the brighter side of things it can't keep you down and that is why we decide to go through with the chemo treatments. And that is why we keep a positive attitude because we can. By doing this we fight strong and we don't back down. Making a good chance that we WIN! What happens when we back down in a fight? We look weak. We give the upper hand or the power to the opponent. We enable the opponent to continue to bully us. Then sometimes we lose. Don't let it keep you down. Your sick and you are gonna feel sick some days more than others. You are going to have bad days and you are going to have better days and you are going to have good days. I know that you can whip this. I don't know if you know you can or not but I do understand that you are scared and unsure of things, but know that you can whip it and you will!!! Here is an for you. :+) that is a smiley with a positive attitude.

[Pokerkitty6]

Thanks again everybody. I can almost do what I want to do if the Department of Children and Families weren't at my house so much. This little girl sees a counselor two times a week, the social worker and the guardian ad litium. If they came to my house and smelled anything they would arrest me and take her to a foster home. Oh well, I know things will only get better. Now if that lingering nasuea would just go away everything will be fine. We are trying to follow the DCF program to get her back home with her Dad asap. That is the best solution for everybody, but these things take time. By the way, my port stopped hurting, so maybe I will only feel it sting 24 hours after chemo....

[Pokerkitty6]

Yesterday was my worst day. Sick as a dog. I was too sick to play the freeroll last night so Tony played for me. He doesn't chat too much. I used to be like that...He came in third place, so that works for me. Today is a much better day. C-ya at the tables soon.

[BnLM5]

Yesterday was my worst day. Sick as a dog. I was too sick to play the freeroll last night so Tony played for me. He doesn't chat too much. I used to be like that...He came in third place, so that works for me. Today is a much better day. C-ya at the tables soon.

I am sorry you had such a bad day. Now has passed a bad, today a better day and next is a good day! Lot's of prayers are being said for you.

[taylovesthebeatles]

I am so sorry Kitty, I hope this passes real soon and you feel better! Hang in there, there will be ups and downs and as Lori said we are all constantly covering you in a blanket of prayer!

[Pokerkitty6]

YEY!!!! I feel soooo much better today! Too bad we don't have a chips game going on! I hope you all enjoy your day as much as I am going to. I'm not going anywhere, but I am going to enjoy not feeling sick. I bet I win some money today. I just have to figure out which poker room I want to play in. For once I have money in all the rooms and we don't have the NDNPT going on. Just my luck! Oh well, at least I have money and a choice of poker rooms!!!!

[BnLM5]

YEY!!!! I feel soooo much better today! Too bad we don't have a chips game going on! I hope you all enjoy your day as much as I am going to. I'm not going anywhere, but I am going to enjoy not feeling sick. I bet I win some money today. I just have to figure out which poker room I want to play in. For once I have money in all the rooms and we don't have the NDNPT going on. Just my luck! Oh well, at least I have money and a choice of poker rooms!!!!

Wow this is great news. And I missed it, two days ago? I don't know about me sometimes. But no matter what they say about me I am ok. Trust me! The famous last words. lol What a good feeling I have, just to read that you are feel soooo much better. I hope this continues and it very likely will. Sometimes people are only sick for the first few days. It would be nice if you are one of them. That is for sure. Well hang in there!

[Pokerkitty6]

I was sick for a whole week after chemo, lingering nasuea. Now I feel sooo much better. Thanks for keeping my spirits up!!!

[BnLM5]

I was sick for a whole week after chemo, lingering nasuea. Now I feel sooo much better. Thanks for keeping my spirits up!!!

Gees Pokerkitty that is the least I can do. I figure what are friends for anyway. If I could take some of your pain I would but unfortunately life does not work that way. For that I am sorry. But I am here for you in any other way that I possibly can be!

[terbo71]

I was sick for a whole week after chemo, lingering nasuea. Now I feel sooo much better. Thanks for keeping my spirits up!!!

I have been unable to be around here kitty but I want to let you know you are still in my thoughts and prayers. I can't even pretend to imagine what a toll this has taken on you and your family, but from what I have read, it sounds like you are very strong and surrounded by the same. I wish you and your family the best kitty. And for what ringo said... Do they not have pot available as a perscription where you are from? It would help with the nasuea and the pain.

[Pokerkitty6]

Thanks Terbo. I want some of what Ringo said soooo bad, but it is not legal in Fla. even with cancer. It sucks. Plus I have a 10year old following me around right now. Oh well, I'll stay on the meds, better than nothing. Thanks again for checking in. This thread has actually helping me keep track of everything. The other day one of my doctors asked when I had my PET scan and I had to actually go on here to find out. Talk to ya soon.

[terbo71]

Thanks Terbo. I want some of what Ringo said soooo bad, but it is not legal in Fla. even with cancer. It sucks. Plus I have a 10year old following me around right now. Oh well, I'll stay on the meds, better than nothing. Thanks again for checking in. This thread has actually helping me keep track of everything. The other day one of my doctors asked when I had my PET scan and I had to actually go on here to find out. Talk to ya soon.

You're right, the meds are definately better than nothing. I am also glad to hear this is helping you too. It took a lot for you to share this with all of us, and I think I speek for several when I say the strength you have shown here has also helped us. Thank you kitty.

[Pokerkitty6]

Went to the dr this morning and guess what.....I grew out of my A cup training bra!!!! Dr. Nijher turned my A cups into B cups!!!! Yey!!!!! It was amazing, the only thing that hurt was the needle going into my skin. I have 3 ports in my body now, 1 for my chemo, and 1 for each boob. He has it scheduled perfectly in between my chemo's. I go back in 3 weeks to become a C cup. That was my size when they amputated them in the first place. I tell ya, it's amazing to watch the girls grow like that and I have 3 weeks to decide, should I stay or should I go.....bigger!!!! I mean if you're gonna get some tits, might as well get some nice one's!!!! They will stay nice and firm for the rest of my life. This is the most excitement I've had in the last two months! Can ya tell? Have a great day all!! I know I will!!

[freeringo]

Went to the dr this morning and guess what.....I grew out of my A cup training bra!!!! Dr. Nijher turned my A cups into B cups!!!! Yey!!!!! It was amazing, the only thing that hurt was the needle going into my skin. I have 3 ports in my body now, 1 for my chemo, and 1 for each boob. He has it scheduled perfectly in between my chemo's. I go back in 3 weeks to become a C cup. That was my size when they amputated them in the first place. I tell ya, it's amazing to watch the girls grow like that and I have 3 weeks to decide, should I stay or should I go.....bigger!!!! I mean if you're gonna get some tits, might as well get some nice one's!!!! They will stay nice and firm for the rest of my life. This is the most excitement I've had in the last two months! Can ya tell? Have a great day all!! I know I will!!

I wish we could be a part of choosing your new tits.
Even some photo comparrisons would be nice.
This would be educational not R-rated NDN

[freeringo]

Thanks again everybody. I can almost do what I want to do if the Department of Children and Families weren't at my house so much. This little girl sees a counselor two times a week, the social worker and the guardian ad litium. If they came to my house and smelled anything they would arrest me and take her to a foster home. Oh well, I know things will only get better. Now if that lingering nasuea would just go away everything will be fine. We are trying to follow the DCF program to get her back home with her Dad asap. That is the best solution for everybody, but these things take time. By the way, my port stopped hurting, so maybe I will only feel it sting 24 hours after chemo....

FN Bushland Florida Laws

I love my broke *** state of California

[BnLM5]

Went to the dr this morning and guess what.....I grew out of my A cup training bra!!!! Dr. Nijher turned my A cups into B cups!!!! Yey!!!!! It was amazing, the only thing that hurt was the needle going into my skin. I have 3 ports in my body now, 1 for my chemo, and 1 for each boob. He has it scheduled perfectly in between my chemo's. I go back in 3 weeks to become a C cup. That was my size when they amputated them in the first place. I tell ya, it's amazing to watch the girls grow like that and I have 3 weeks to decide, should I stay or should I go.....bigger!!!! I mean if you're gonna get some tits, might as well get some nice one's!!!! They will stay nice and firm for the rest of my life. This is the most excitement I've had in the last two months! Can ya tell? Have a great day all!! I know I will!!

Now that is what I am talking about. I mean big boobs are good and all but nice perfect and firm big boobs for the rest of my life is a whole lot gooder! lol Truly the goodest. Surly a day does not pass by that we are not blessed in many ways! How sweet are those blessings when we see them and we give thanks! Your strength and good attitude has been a pleasure and I have learned from you PK! Thanks!

[Pokerkitty6]

I wish NDN woulda let ya'll see my old boobs. I posted a pic, but I guess I must have offended someone. I was proud of those puppies!!!! My doctor just cut them off and threw them in the garbage can. What a waste! I made my hubby take pics a week before, kind of a going way party. He got carried away and I thought I would look sexier with the viking logo in the pic. The viking pic got to stay on my profile, but the boobs had to go. A shame I tell you. That was a good night for me. When I finally get my new girls settled next year, I'll post a new photo. I actually wanted to compare before and after...I'll have to think of a way to have a coming out photo that is not so offensive. I wouldn't have this problem in Swedan! Its just boobs for God's sake. I am not shy about my body. Sometimes Americans can be sooooo uptight. We all have the same parts. I was happy to have mine and sad I had to say goodbye. Now I wonder what the end result will be. I think I'm gonna luv them! Dr. Nijher is great!!!

[taylovesthebeatles]

That is awesome Pokerkitty, I'm really really happy for you! You get to go through discovery of new tits twice, none of us get to do that! I'm sorry the pics didn't work out...maybe NDN would let you email them to those who want to see. I know I'm curious and I'm proud of you for being proud of the girls, you should be! I hope Tony enjoys them too, I'm sure he does. Hooray for boobs!