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[Pokerkitty6]

Hi all!!! A few nights ago I told a few of you that I had something to say and I would tell you when I am ready. Well tonight I feel ready to share. I have grade 3 invasive poorly diferentiated ductal type mammory carcenoma. In other words, I have breast cancer. It's freaking me out. Within the next two weeks I will be having a radical double masectomy. Some of my words may be spelled wrong, but you get the idea. It sucks because I have beautiful 36C tits. I mean they are f'in nice. I will undergo reconstruction at the same time and I think I am going to get me some bigger tits. What do ya'll think about 36D? My husband smiles everytime I say it!!!! When I am down and out, my hubby, Tony has been instructed by me to play some of my games. Feel free to ask is that you Tony or Renee? We will be honest with you. My doctors says I should be back to playing golf 6-12 months down the road. I'll just have to learn how to regrip with bigger tits. I probably have to grip the shaft and squeze my tits together. All humor aside, this is very serious for me. I thought I would just like to share my feelings with my NDN family. This site has and will continue to be a blessing for me, especially now, to keep my mind off of things and learn from others experience. I am still working in the golf shop and have my job secured when I have recovered enough to go back to work. Until then, I'll just keep happy thoughts in my head. Cheers and I'll c-ya at the tables!!!!

[BnLM5]

Pokerkitty how is your port today? And how are you feeling? I've just been wondering about you so I thought I would let you know.

[taylovesthebeatles]

Hey there Kitty just a thought for you based on another friend's experience with cancer- it's not breast cancer but ovarian but she is still starting chemo too. I don't know how you personally feel about all the chemo side effects and stuff but I know for my friend's mom, she had her daughter shave off all her hair before the chemo started so she wouldn't have to go through the trauma of watching it fall out. You're a really strong woman and I don't know if going through something like that would bother you, but in case you hadn't thought about it I thought I would offer that suggestion out for you. I love you hon!

[twenty47]

hey poker kitty, you're always in my thoughts and prayers (i don't pray everyday but I do when I feel like it) I know the feeling of recovery. I can't say I know about Cancer because I've been blessed (knock on wood) to not have it. I did however have a hysterectomy and lost every chance of ever of having another baby. I was however blessed with one baby, a beautiful boy. he's now 9 years old and I thank God everyday for him. I will never forget the pain of after surgery. In some way we're the same, you lost something personal and so did I, but you have the chance to get another, I on the other hand can't get another womb.. but i see the importance of a women's breast. With me it was partially my fault why it came about, with you, you had no choice and that's what makes it wrong. I wish we all lived in a perfect world and there was no cancer, no mistakes, no reason to lose. But we don't and i know it probably doesn't mean much but I'm glad you get to get that boob back and I'm sorry it hurts so much. don't overdue anything, when the dr's say rest, they mean rest.

[taylovesthebeatles]

hey poker kitty, you're always in my thoughts and prayers (i don't pray everyday but I do when I feel like it) I know the feeling of recovery. I can't say I know about Cancer because I've been blessed (knock on wood) to not have it. I did however have a hysterectomy and lost every chance of ever of having another baby. I was however blessed with one baby, a beautiful boy. he's now 9 years old and I thank God everyday for him. I will never forget the pain of after surgery. In some way we're the same, you lost something personal and so did I, but you have the chance to get another, I on the other hand can't get another womb.. but i see the importance of a women's breast. With me it was partially my fault why it came about, with you, you had no choice and that's what makes it wrong. I wish we all lived in a perfect world and there was no cancer, no mistakes, no reason to lose. But we don't and i know it probably doesn't mean much but I'm glad you get to get that boob back and I'm sorry it hurts so much. don't overdue anything, when the dr's say rest, they mean rest.

[Pokerkitty6]

Thanks Tay, I luv u too. Twenty, I also had a hystorectomy a couple of years ago. I waited until I was over 40 because I wanted kids. I never got pregnant so my brothers and sisters have shared theirs with me since birth. I have alot of relationships with alot of kids, I have about 33 neices and nephews under the age of 20. We have 4 newborns in the family this year and 1 already to pop into the new year. That's what happens when your decides to pop out 10 of her own. I'm really over the baby thing at this point and happy with not having any. I had no choice but to change my attitude on that one. Right now as a few days ago, I have my 10 year neice living with me by court orders. I would rather her be here than in a foster home. This is not the first time I have been down this road. I come from a very disfunctional family. I wish one day we will have a world of no cancer. Alot of us do. Hey B...my port feels like it is fragile, like if I roll over it might pop out. I know it won't, but because it's new to me I feel it. I was able to shower and my bandages off today. I also had a cardiogram today. That's like an ultrasound of your heart. They want to make sure my heart is strong for the chemo they are going to give me. Hey Tay, I thought about shaving my head now, but my doctor said to wait because I won't loose my hair until about 3 weeks after my first treatment. One of my members at work gave me a short red headed wig. It's pretty sexy. My green eyes look blue when I have it on. I have to buy a couple more this week and get myself prepared. Thank you all for the advice and inspiration you have given me. You are all helping more than you will ever know. I do appreciate you!

[Lilred36]

Kitty, I am so proud of how strong you are, your niece is very lucky to have you.I knew we had something in common,besides golf.Disfunctional families, my thoughts and prayers are with ya babe, hoping you get rid of that cancer and it stays gone.I also hope we get to play poker soon.

[Pokerkitty6]

Awwww...Lilred you're so sweet. I hope all the cancer is gone too. Just so you know, I'm the second coolest Hillbilly. Seems like we have alot in common.

[freeringo]

A florida hillbilly is like a mountain surfer dude

[Pokerkitty6]

I'm a hillbilly who lives in Florida and was born in West Virginia! LOL

[BnLM5]

I'm a hillbilly who lives in Florida and was born in West Virginia! LOL

Pokerkitty, you were born in West Virginia, and I was born in Virginia. My biological father lives in West Virginia now, Jane Lew I believe. What took you all the way to Florida? You can porb guess what brought me all the way to CA. The USAirForce, did my mom was from CA and She came back after her and my Father divorced.

You guys must be from hillbilly heaven! I am in between the city and the country and just down from the hillbillies. I fit in better in the country but I like the city, and the hills are nice to visit.

Oh and I think people that do not have disfunctional families are far and few these day's. They are the minority!

[BnLM5]

Thanks Tay, I luv u too. Twenty, I also had a hystorectomy a couple of years ago. I waited until I was over 40 because I wanted kids. I never got pregnant so my brothers and sisters have shared theirs with me since birth. I have alot of relationships with alot of kids, I have about 33 neices and nephews under the age of 20. We have 4 newborns in the family this year and 1 already to pop into the new year. That's what happens when your decides to pop out 10 of her own. I'm really over the baby thing at this point and happy with not having any. I had no choice but to change my attitude on that one. Right now as a few days ago, I have my 10 year neice living with me by court orders. I would rather her be here than in a foster home. This is not the first time I have been down this road. I come from a very disfunctional family. I wish one day we will have a world of no cancer. Alot of us do. Hey B...my port feels like it is fragile, like if I roll over it might pop out. I know it won't, but because it's new to me I feel it. I was able to shower and my bandages off today. I also had a cardiogram today. That's like an ultrasound of your heart. They want to make sure my heart is strong for the chemo they are going to give me. Hey Tay, I thought about shaving my head now, but my doctor said to wait because I won't loose my hair until about 3 weeks after my first treatment. One of my members at work gave me a short red headed wig. It's pretty sexy. My green eyes look blue when I have it on. I have to buy a couple more this week and get myself prepared. Thank you all for the advice and inspiration you have given me. You are all helping more than you will ever know. I do appreciate you!

Hey Pokerkitty, I'm sure it is very uncomfortable. No it wont pop out but it is always good to be careful. Hopefully they get it done and out in no time. With a quick total remission status. I am sure your heart is plenty strong it is standard procedure for this type of treatment. (It's a strong one) Your doctors seem to be quick and on the ball that is a nice feeling to know that you are in good care. A positive attitude like you have is the number one key to getting well. This has not been easy on you and it's not getting any easier just yet is it? You just keep smiling and knowing you have it beat and it will get better soon. My thoughts and prayers are with you every single day! Don't hesitate if you need to talk or anything. Okee Dokee ...Lori

[woohoosue]

Pokerkitty, you were born in West Virginia, and I was born in Virginia. My biological father lives in West Virginia now, Jane Lew I believe. What took you all the way to Florida? You can porb guess what brought me all the way to CA. The USAirForce, did my mom was from CA and She came back after her and my Father divorced.

You guys must be from hillbilly heaven! I am in between the city and the country and just down from the hillbillies. I fit in better in the country but I like the city, and the hills are nice to visit.

Oh and I think people that do not have disfunctional families are far and few these day's. They are the minority!

ok we have no hillbillies u r right ..we call them rednecks here... an u do have sufer dudes u call them snowboarders
.....and we are all disfunctional cuz we cant all find away to want the same things......im good with disfunctional it means someone is doing what they want no matter what someone else says...lol....and for those that think they have it all together and above reproach ..You are in denial!

poker kitty i like to think of u in as a redhead..... U GO GIRL! hang in there thru all this ...i know it's hard.....You have done so well.....i wish u all the best in recovery .

[Pokerkitty6]

It's funny you said red head. My very first wig is a short sexy red head. My natural color is medium brown, but my best color is blonde. I hope to get a blonde, burnette and black wig. I might as well try all the colors. You're right about Florida, we are rednecks here. Most of my high school class was in Future Farmers of America, including myself. When you come from a family as large as mine you know it's going to be disfunctional, hell, there's not enough branches on any tree to keep up with us!!! I actually have to use a wall calendar to keep track of everybody's birthdays and you know I'm going to get some of them wrong. My neice turned 4 this year, but the calendar said 14! She loved it. I went oops! It happens....

[BnLM5]

Oh my gosh kitty I would have never guessed that you are a natural med brown you look great as a blond. So I am sure you will look great in all of them.

I look bad bad bad with blond hair.

[freeringo]

What would Eejit say:
Can we get back on topic please....?

FN girl talk.....

[BnLM5]

Pokerkitty how did your first chemo treatment go today? I hope it went well! I have been thinking about you so I thought that I would tell you that. My thoughts, my heart and my prayers are with you. Lori

[freeringo]

Pokerkitty how did your first chemo treatment go today? I hope it went well! I have been thinking about you so I thought that I would tell you that. My thoughts, my heart and my prayers are with you. Lori

I nice chip game would help I bet!!!!

[Pokerkitty6]

Well my first chemo has me pretty sick about right now. The pharmacy won't have my Zofran in until tomorrow for nasuea. It took four hours and one back of drugs was red, so they said I will pee red. Good thing they told me about that one. I took the BRACA test today to see where cancer will pop up next, to try to prevent it from happening. They had 7 relciners, 6 facing one way and the 7th facing all of them. I ended up in the 7th chair and I looked up to see all 70 and 80 year olds. That's when I lost it. I felt I'm way too young to be getting this. I told them it was my first time. The nurse said I need to calm down or the chemo effects will be worse for me, so they gave me some happy juice. Right now I am light headed and nauseas. I'm sure tomorrow will be a better day. Today was just overwelming for me. I go back on the 26th for my next treatment, I'm sure I'll handle it better then. I hope! I want one of those purple bracelets that say CANCER SUCKS because thats what I say. Any advice will be greatly appreciated. I'm not used to this.

[BnLM5]

Oh pokerkitty I am so sorry! It is a scary situation that's a fact and chemo is going to make you sick. Although I have not yet had to experience cancer or the things that go along with it I have seen and been around it all very much and very close. You are very young but there are many young people that are faced with cancer. You have a very aggressive type of cancer yet it is very likely that you will be able to put down. Meaning I believe there is a very good chance that the chemo will stop any chance of it growing. And your cancer will go into remission. I have seen this happen with the type of cancer that you have. So hang in there and keep your positive attitude. I can not express to you how important your attitude is right now. It is very difficult especially concerning your stress level not knowing what is happening to you. But just try to keep it in your mind that you have it beat and believe that. And I believe you will beat it. I truly do!!! Have you considered checking into a support group. I think it would be a very good idea. Because support groups have people who are or have experienced the same exact thing you are dealing with. There you can meet and talk about what is happening to you and the people can relate personally. There you will also see the many that have beat what you have. You can check into it they have online support groups where you never leave your house or never see the people if you chose not to but you can read all you want. You don't even have to post if you don't want to. But I think it would be a good Idea for you to read about the people who are or have dealt with the exact same thing that you are faced. But more importantly to read that many people have beat it. The success stories are most uplifting and will help keep you positive.

This is in no way a comparison to what you have. But I know that it has helped my friend (Andrea) a lot to meet people that can relate to her. I wanted to mention to you that one of my very best friends is having a very hard time with cancer as we speak. She is 27 years old. She has a different type of cancer it is called Osteo-carcinoma which is a bone cancer that has developed tumors in hers body. She had to have one of her legs amputated all the way to the pelvis last July and has since developed cancer in her lungs. Doctors say that she will battle cancer for the rest of her life. So her talking to people that also are dealing with what she is has helped her to keep on keeping on. Not that she is glad that others are faced with such a tragedy but that she is not alone has been most comforting for her.

Lots of love and support to you from me you are in my prayers every single day. If there is anything I can do please let me know. I am there for you!

Lori

[Pokerkitty6]

Thank you so much Lori. I am soooo sorry to hear about your friend Andrea. I heard bone cancer is one of the most painful cancers. I wish her all the luck in the world and will put her in my prayers. I do have a huge support group, it just gets to me sometimes. I have only cried maybe 5 times in the last month, so thats not so bad. I'm just so much of a baby when I don't feel good and I feel really sick right now. I wish I had my pills tonight, I feel like I'm going to throw up and I don't want to.

[BnLM5]

You are most welcome Pokerkitty I just wish I could make it all better for you.

Thank you for your prayers they are much appreciated. Just so you know that my idea was for you to see how important it is to stay positive.

It makes me mad that the pharmacy does not have your meds. That is just par! It is just amazing how pharmacies can be so unprepared for things that are so important. I bet if it were them they would have it.

I don't blame you about not wanting to throw up I wouldn't want to either. But don't think you are a baby for crying. You can cry if you want to it relieves stress. It is good to cry sometimes. I will cry with you or for you just remember that. Hopefully as the night comes you will start feeling better.

What time was your treatment complete today?

[bouks999]

i am so sorry to hear that when my daughter was diagnosed with leukemia i was devastated i cried a whole lot but shes pulling through and so will you and as far as boob jobs go i would like one too if i could afford it lol. It is nice that you are taking it one day at a time. Cancer is very hard. My daughter lost hair and she was sick from t he khemo so if you need advice im here. I may have not gone through it but my daughter is. So i know how you feel.

[taylovesthebeatles]

Carbon LeafBlock Of Wood Ringtones Left Send "Block Of Wood" Ringtone to your Cell Carbon LeafBlock Of Wood Ringtones Right

Grab your heart we need to leave
There's no time to cry or grieve
For the fallen family tree

Rise above the flooding plain
Crouching low to duck the flame
Generations against the grain
Up in smoke and down the drain

If the fire, if the flood
Burns the tree and thins the blood
If your tears don't want to dry
I can help you cry
Through the night
Through the night and day
I can't your pain away
But I can help you cry

We'll cut the branch from this tree
Carve a place for you and me
A wooden seat that we can string
From a branch where we can swing

We'll take this block of wood
Carve it down and sand it good
When finished it will be
A souvenir of the family tree

And if the fire, if the flood
Burns the tree and thins the blood
If your tears don't wanna dry

I can help you cry
Through the night
Through the night and day
I can't take your pain away
But I can help you cry
Through the night
Through the night and day
I can't take your pain away
I can try but

God help me please
Come save the family tree
My friends I broke them all
When falling off the wall

In the ash I found an ember
Something warm to help remember
A block of wood that used to be
A strong tall family tree

A strong tall family tree
Blowing in the breeze

Cry through the night
Through the night and day
I can't take your pain away
But I can help you cry
Through the night
Through the night and day
I can't take your pain away
But I can help you cry

"Block of Wood" by Carbon Leaf

My prayers are with you, sis. Remember that it's okay to cry. You will fight this and we will be there with you. Thanks for keeping us updated on your progress, girl. Cancer has no regard for age, it hits everyone from infants to the elderly. The key is faith and fighting, which you have going for you. Much love to my dear Renee!

[Pokerkitty6]

Bouks, I am sooo sorry for your little girl. I wish you only the best, you have alot on your plate right now and you have to be extra strong for your little angel. Tay and B, my girls who I can always count on, thank you for everything. I was in chemo for 4 hours yesterday and today I had to go get a shot to keep my white blood count up. Apparently 24 hours after chemo you will always get this shot. My dr. told me to expect a fever, bone pains, and pain that feels like I might be having a heart attack. I told her I'm glad she told me that or I would think I'm having a panic attack. She told me to stay on my Zanex, I'm probably spelling that wrong. That little pill makes me feel like I'm high, I kinda like it! I got my Zofran for nasuea today, thank God. Those have made me feel better all day. She told me I should not drink alcohol because my liver is being overworked by all the chemo and other meds I'm on. I asked about medical marijuana, but it's not legal in the state of Florida. Hey, you can't blame a girl for asking. I'll just have to be happy with the meds I have. A couple of them aren't that bad! I sure do miss my grapebombs!!! C-ya at the tables!

[BnLM5]

Pokerkitty are you feeling any better today. has the sick feeling eased at all. I have been wondering if you are better as some feel better in a couple of days and some stay sick. I am hoping and praying that you are one of the lucky ones and will only feel sick for a bit and then it is gone. Lots of Love Lori