Oh pokerkitty I am so sorry! It is a scary situation that's a fact and chemo is going to make you sick. Although I have not yet had to experience cancer or the things that go along with it I have seen and been around it all very much and very close. You are very young but there are many young people that are faced with cancer. You have a very aggressive type of cancer yet it is very likely that you will be able to put down. Meaning I believe there is a very good chance that the chemo will stop any chance of it growing. And your cancer will go into remission. I have seen this happen with the type of cancer that you have. So hang in there and keep your positive attitude. I can not express to you how important your attitude is right now. It is very difficult especially concerning your stress level not knowing what is happening to you. But just try to keep it in your mind that you have it beat and believe that. And I believe you will beat it. I truly do!!! Have you considered checking into a support group. I think it would be a very good idea. Because support groups have people who are or have experienced the same exact thing you are dealing with. There you can meet and talk about what is happening to you and the people can relate personally. There you will also see the many that have beat what you have. You can check into it they have online support groups where you never leave your house or never see the people if you chose not to but you can read all you want. You don't even have to post if you don't want to. But I think it would be a good Idea for you to read about the people who are or have dealt with the exact same thing that you are faced. But more importantly to read that many people have beat it. The success stories are most uplifting and will help keep you positive.

This is in no way a comparison to what you have. But I know that it has helped my friend (Andrea) a lot to meet people that can relate to her. I wanted to mention to you that one of my very best friends is having a very hard time with cancer as we speak. She is 27 years old. She has a different type of cancer it is called Osteo-carcinoma which is a bone cancer that has developed tumors in hers body. She had to have one of her legs amputated all the way to the pelvis last July and has since developed cancer in her lungs. Doctors say that she will battle cancer for the rest of her life. So her talking to people that also are dealing with what she is has helped her to keep on keeping on. Not that she is glad that others are faced with such a tragedy but that she is not alone has been most comforting for her.

Lots of love and support to you from me you are in my prayers every single day. If there is anything I can do please let me know. I am there for you!

Lori