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[Pokerkitty6]

Well my first chemo has me pretty sick about right now. The pharmacy won't have my Zofran in until tomorrow for nasuea. It took four hours and one back of drugs was red, so they said I will pee red. Good thing they told me about that one. I took the BRACA test today to see where cancer will pop up next, to try to prevent it from happening. They had 7 relciners, 6 facing one way and the 7th facing all of them. I ended up in the 7th chair and I looked up to see all 70 and 80 year olds. That's when I lost it. I felt I'm way too young to be getting this. I told them it was my first time. The nurse said I need to calm down or the chemo effects will be worse for me, so they gave me some happy juice. Right now I am light headed and nauseas. I'm sure tomorrow will be a better day. Today was just overwelming for me. I go back on the 26th for my next treatment, I'm sure I'll handle it better then. I hope! I want one of those purple bracelets that say CANCER SUCKS because thats what I say. Any advice will be greatly appreciated. I'm not used to this.

[BnLM5]

Oh pokerkitty I am so sorry! It is a scary situation that's a fact and chemo is going to make you sick. Although I have not yet had to experience cancer or the things that go along with it I have seen and been around it all very much and very close. You are very young but there are many young people that are faced with cancer. You have a very aggressive type of cancer yet it is very likely that you will be able to put down. Meaning I believe there is a very good chance that the chemo will stop any chance of it growing. And your cancer will go into remission. I have seen this happen with the type of cancer that you have. So hang in there and keep your positive attitude. I can not express to you how important your attitude is right now. It is very difficult especially concerning your stress level not knowing what is happening to you. But just try to keep it in your mind that you have it beat and believe that. And I believe you will beat it. I truly do!!! Have you considered checking into a support group. I think it would be a very good idea. Because support groups have people who are or have experienced the same exact thing you are dealing with. There you can meet and talk about what is happening to you and the people can relate personally. There you will also see the many that have beat what you have. You can check into it they have online support groups where you never leave your house or never see the people if you chose not to but you can read all you want. You don't even have to post if you don't want to. But I think it would be a good Idea for you to read about the people who are or have dealt with the exact same thing that you are faced. But more importantly to read that many people have beat it. The success stories are most uplifting and will help keep you positive.

This is in no way a comparison to what you have. But I know that it has helped my friend (Andrea) a lot to meet people that can relate to her. I wanted to mention to you that one of my very best friends is having a very hard time with cancer as we speak. She is 27 years old. She has a different type of cancer it is called Osteo-carcinoma which is a bone cancer that has developed tumors in hers body. She had to have one of her legs amputated all the way to the pelvis last July and has since developed cancer in her lungs. Doctors say that she will battle cancer for the rest of her life. So her talking to people that also are dealing with what she is has helped her to keep on keeping on. Not that she is glad that others are faced with such a tragedy but that she is not alone has been most comforting for her.

Lots of love and support to you from me you are in my prayers every single day. If there is anything I can do please let me know. I am there for you!

Lori

[Pokerkitty6]

Thank you so much Lori. I am soooo sorry to hear about your friend Andrea. I heard bone cancer is one of the most painful cancers. I wish her all the luck in the world and will put her in my prayers. I do have a huge support group, it just gets to me sometimes. I have only cried maybe 5 times in the last month, so thats not so bad. I'm just so much of a baby when I don't feel good and I feel really sick right now. I wish I had my pills tonight, I feel like I'm going to throw up and I don't want to.

[BnLM5]

You are most welcome Pokerkitty I just wish I could make it all better for you.

Thank you for your prayers they are much appreciated. Just so you know that my idea was for you to see how important it is to stay positive.

It makes me mad that the pharmacy does not have your meds. That is just par! It is just amazing how pharmacies can be so unprepared for things that are so important. I bet if it were them they would have it.

I don't blame you about not wanting to throw up I wouldn't want to either. But don't think you are a baby for crying. You can cry if you want to it relieves stress. It is good to cry sometimes. I will cry with you or for you just remember that. Hopefully as the night comes you will start feeling better.

What time was your treatment complete today?