BC

[Pokerkitty6]

When you're in the golf business, you're at work before the sun comes up. It's really beautiful to watch the sunrise on a golf course, especially if you're the first one to tee off. Went to the dr. today and one of my drains came out today. Yey!!! Maybe I can actually sleep on left side tonight. I saw my surgeon yesterday and asked him for some more pain pills, he only gave me 15 a week ago today. He said no, they make you constapated. i asked him for some sleeping pills because I'm not a back sleeper, he said no they are too addicting. I said my god, you cut my boobs completely off I'm gonna need something. He told me to take tylenol and tylenol pm. I said ok, but at home I told my husband the man is crazy, I'm going to be in pain. So, today I see the plastic surgeon and asked him for some pain pills so I can sleep and not be in pain. He said, thats the least we could do, after all we cut your breasts off and you're going to need more when we start "enhancing" you. I dealing with three different drs right now, kinda hard to keep them all straight. I'm also using NDN as my blog on my breast cancer so I can keep my friends updated. I've told a few people to log on here so they can keep up with my status. Hope you all don't mind this and if you don't want to read, then skip it, but 1 in 8 women will be diagnosed with breast cancer in their lifetime, so actually this can be used as a learning tool for alot of people. Men and women alike. This is brand new to me and my husband, but we have come a long way in one month. It still feels like a bad dream. Thank you all for letting me ramble on about this, it really helps me.

[Pokerkitty6]

Yesterday was a blah day. I looked at boobs and actually started crying. Trust me, I'm a very strong person, not a crybaby, so it shocked me. I know this is temporary, but it hurts to look. There is no way I'm letting my husband see this image. I want him to remember my sexy boobs and hopefully the new ones will turn him on even more. Today I feel a little more upbeat. My hubby said he would take me to the track today to cheer me up, but I can't because I have to stay away from germs for a while. Maybe I'll send him over to place some bets for me. Sometimes I get lucky when I do that. I know today will be a better day, its my brother's birthday, his name is Nick. I will always call him Nicky and he is 31. Have a great day and I'll c-ya at the tables.

[freeringo]

Yesterday was a blah day. I looked at boobs and actually started crying. Trust me, I'm a very strong person, not a crybaby, so it shocked me. I know this is temporary, but it hurts to look. There is no way I'm letting my husband see this image. I want him to remember my sexy boobs and hopefully the new ones will turn him on even more. Today I feel a little more upbeat. My hubby said he would take me to the track today to cheer me up, but I can't because I have to stay away from germs for a while. Maybe I'll send him over to place some bets for me. Sometimes I get lucky when I do that. I know today will be a better day, its my brother's birthday, his name is Nick. I will always call him Nicky and he is 31. Have a great day and I'll c-ya at the tables.

Kitty, it's called post traumatic stress syndrome.
You have to expect that for a while.
Crying is very important to your overall emotional balance.
Just don't let depression take over.

That's what we are here for, to help make sure that doesn't happen.
Allow us to cheer you up when ever you need it.
We love you.
NO FEAR

[taylovesthebeatles]

Thanks for the update, Pokerkitty. I'm so sorry this is so hard on you, but I am sure you are not the only one who has felt this way. Stay strong, and remember that it's more than okay to cry if you need to. Any of us here will be more than happy to be a shoulder to cry on for you whenever you need it. I am sending you my love and prayers every day!

[BnLM5]

Yesterday was a blah day. I looked at boobs and actually started crying. Trust me, I'm a very strong person, not a crybaby, so it shocked me. I know this is temporary, but it hurts to look. There is no way I'm letting my husband see this image. I want him to remember my sexy boobs and hopefully the new ones will turn him on even more. Today I feel a little more upbeat. My hubby said he would take me to the track today to cheer me up, but I can't because I have to stay away from germs for a while. Maybe I'll send him over to place some bets for me. Sometimes I get lucky when I do that. I know today will be a better day, its my brother's birthday, his name is Nick. I will always call him Nicky and he is 31. Have a great day and I'll c-ya at the tables.

Pokerkitty I know this have been incredibly rough on you and my heart feels it for you. I don't care how strong or how tough we are the fact remains and is sometimes unfortunate that we are still human. This all happened so fast and we are never prepared for it. It's ok to cry and be afraid it really is God know I cry well God and everybody know that I cry so if you chose not to I will cry for you. And if you decide that it's ok I will cry with you. I so admire your strength. It is refreshing! I hope today was better than yesterday and I hope tomorrow will be better than today. Hang in there baby! You got her whoped. Thoughts and prayers are with you. Can you feel it?

With Love
Lori

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Give me a shout if you need anything Pokerkitty!

I couldn't imagine how difficult things can be, but stay strong and get through this!

We are all fortunate that we're getting to spend some extra time with you here on NDN and that you're opening up and coming out of that shell!

[taylovesthebeatles]

I've been through many surgeries where I feel pretty good for a few days afterward, and then all of a sudden I feel much worse one day. It definitely does happen, but I am still very sorry. Do listen to your doctor for sure, I know you really want to be as independent as you were before and keep your life as normal as possible, but you'll thank yourself for rest later. Just keep taking your pain pills and take it easy! You'll want your energy for after you get your new tits and they're all ready to be enjoyed!

[Pokerkitty6]

Hi everybody. I just want you to know I am not writing this to make you feel sorry for me or to make it seem I can't handle this. There are days I have a hard time with this, but that is to be expected. I am handling this way better than most women from what I hear. I am one of the strongest females you will ever meet. This bc thread is mainly for me to express myself instead of holding everything in. It is a stress release for me. I know alot of you will get tired of reading this and others will learn more about breast cancer. Like I said before 1 in 8 women will develop breast cancer. We are all gamblers here and we know odds, so chances are, you know or will know someone with breast cancer in your life time. I just back from seeing my ongologist for the first time this morning. She is a sweet lady who works early on Sunday mornings. Never, ever heard of a doctor working Sunday mornings. Anyways...my cancer is basal triple negative, very aggressive. I have to have 6 months of chemo, the aggresive form. I will loose all of my hair from the very 1st treatment. For 6 months, I will have no hair and loose alot of weight. I started crying when I heard the word agressive. With this type of chemo, I will get sick and have a hard time with my appetite. I am scheduled back at work on August 16, I will probably go back. My members at the golf club have been extremely supportative, as well as many of you, for that I say thank you. I feel comfortable enough where I can go around them even if I am bald. I said at the beginning I'm going to be bald, boobless, and skinny. At the end of this, I'm going to have a new head of hair, a new set of huge tits, and more passion for life than I've ever had. Look out world here I come!!! My husband is giving money for my new wigs next week. I already have a cute short red headed one with soft gold highlights. I bought a doo-rag with the flap that hangs down in the back that is filled with eagles and "feel the wind" on it, my biker look. I'm going back this week to buy the Miami Hurricanes do-rag in a couple of days. I already have one for the Miami Dolphins. I told my husband, I need to go to the dollar store and buy a bunch of little waste baskets and put about ten grocery store plastic bags in them for when I puke, it makes for easy clean up that way. I do that for my bathrooms already. I'll want a basket in every room for sure. He said he is going to buy my 1st "puke basket" of the Miami Dolphins. I told him no way am I going to puke in a Miami Dolphins basket. He handled the news well this morning and wanted to know what color wig, I'm getting. I told him all, blonde, burnette, and red head. My friend at work said he is getting me a hot pink one. I don't think my husband will go for that one. I will process this information today and look forward to seeing you at our chip game. c-ya soon...

[targetguy1]

Hi everybody. I just want you to know I am not writing this to make you feel sorry for me or to make it seem I can't handle this. There are days I have a hard time with this, but that is to be expected. I am handling this way better than most women from what I hear. I am one of the strongest females you will ever meet. This bc thread is mainly for me to express myself instead of holding everything in. It is a stress release for me. I know alot of you will get tired of reading this and others will learn more about breast cancer. Like I said before 1 in 8 women will develop breast cancer. We are all gamblers here and we know odds, so chances are, you know or will know someone with breast cancer in your life time. I just back from seeing my ongologist for the first time this morning. She is a sweet lady who works early on Sunday mornings. Never, ever heard of a doctor working Sunday mornings. Anyways...my cancer is basal triple negative, very aggressive. I have to have 6 months of chemo, the aggresive form. I will loose all of my hair from the very 1st treatment. For 6 months, I will have no hair and loose alot of weight. I started crying when I heard the word agressive. With this type of chemo, I will get sick and have a hard time with my appetite. I am scheduled back at work on August 16, I will probably go back. My members at the golf club have been extremely supportative, as well as many of you, for that I say thank you. I feel comfortable enough where I can go around them even if I am bald. I said at the beginning I'm going to be bald, boobless, and skinny. At the end of this, I'm going to have a new head of hair, a new set of huge tits, and more passion for life than I've ever had. Look out world here I come!!! My husband is giving money for my new wigs next week. I already have a cute short red headed one with soft gold highlights. I bought a doo-rag with the flap that hangs down in the back that is filled with eagles and "feel the wind" on it, my biker look. I'm going back this week to buy the Miami Hurricanes do-rag in a couple of days. I already have one for the Miami Dolphins. I told my husband, I need to go to the dollar store and buy a bunch of little waste baskets and put about ten grocery store plastic bags in them for when I puke, it makes for easy clean up that way. I do that for my bathrooms already. I'll want a basket in every room for sure. He said he is going to buy my 1st "puke basket" of the Miami Dolphins. I told him no way am I going to puke in a Miami Dolphins basket. He handled the news well this morning and wanted to know what color wig, I'm getting. I told him all, blonde, burnette, and red head. My friend at work said he is getting me a hot pink one. I don't think my husband will go for that one. I will process this information today and look forward to seeing you at our chip game. c-ya soon...

kitty you are a very strong women and i know the men here wich they were

half as strong as you are. yes the next 6 months will be difficult and very

hard on you and you family but like you said your very strong women and

with that being said you already have the advantage then most women who

go through this. just stay strong and for once in your life butyourself first

and everyone else behind yourself.