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[Pokerkitty6]

ok...so I'm a little confused, I wonder why...my oncologist appt.is next Sunday, not this Sunday. I got up at 5:30am for nothing. Well a least I got the paper work out of the way. I'm anxious to have a pet scan. I'm not real good on waiting for answers. I just need to know if the cancer has spread. Well, next appt. is Tue. with the plastic doctor. He can't start "pumping" me up for at lease another week. I'm too sore and tender. I have too many dr's and too many appointments right now. Can't wait for all of this to be over with. C-ya at the tables soon.

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Get some rest and NEVER wake up at 5:30 on a Sunday!

[Pokerkitty6]

When you're in the golf business, you're at work before the sun comes up. It's really beautiful to watch the sunrise on a golf course, especially if you're the first one to tee off. Went to the dr. today and one of my drains came out today. Yey!!! Maybe I can actually sleep on left side tonight. I saw my surgeon yesterday and asked him for some more pain pills, he only gave me 15 a week ago today. He said no, they make you constapated. i asked him for some sleeping pills because I'm not a back sleeper, he said no they are too addicting. I said my god, you cut my boobs completely off I'm gonna need something. He told me to take tylenol and tylenol pm. I said ok, but at home I told my husband the man is crazy, I'm going to be in pain. So, today I see the plastic surgeon and asked him for some pain pills so I can sleep and not be in pain. He said, thats the least we could do, after all we cut your breasts off and you're going to need more when we start "enhancing" you. I dealing with three different drs right now, kinda hard to keep them all straight. I'm also using NDN as my blog on my breast cancer so I can keep my friends updated. I've told a few people to log on here so they can keep up with my status. Hope you all don't mind this and if you don't want to read, then skip it, but 1 in 8 women will be diagnosed with breast cancer in their lifetime, so actually this can be used as a learning tool for alot of people. Men and women alike. This is brand new to me and my husband, but we have come a long way in one month. It still feels like a bad dream. Thank you all for letting me ramble on about this, it really helps me.

[Pokerkitty6]

Yesterday was a blah day. I looked at boobs and actually started crying. Trust me, I'm a very strong person, not a crybaby, so it shocked me. I know this is temporary, but it hurts to look. There is no way I'm letting my husband see this image. I want him to remember my sexy boobs and hopefully the new ones will turn him on even more. Today I feel a little more upbeat. My hubby said he would take me to the track today to cheer me up, but I can't because I have to stay away from germs for a while. Maybe I'll send him over to place some bets for me. Sometimes I get lucky when I do that. I know today will be a better day, its my brother's birthday, his name is Nick. I will always call him Nicky and he is 31. Have a great day and I'll c-ya at the tables.

[freeringo]

Yesterday was a blah day. I looked at boobs and actually started crying. Trust me, I'm a very strong person, not a crybaby, so it shocked me. I know this is temporary, but it hurts to look. There is no way I'm letting my husband see this image. I want him to remember my sexy boobs and hopefully the new ones will turn him on even more. Today I feel a little more upbeat. My hubby said he would take me to the track today to cheer me up, but I can't because I have to stay away from germs for a while. Maybe I'll send him over to place some bets for me. Sometimes I get lucky when I do that. I know today will be a better day, its my brother's birthday, his name is Nick. I will always call him Nicky and he is 31. Have a great day and I'll c-ya at the tables.

Kitty, it's called post traumatic stress syndrome.
You have to expect that for a while.
Crying is very important to your overall emotional balance.
Just don't let depression take over.

That's what we are here for, to help make sure that doesn't happen.
Allow us to cheer you up when ever you need it.
We love you.
NO FEAR

[taylovesthebeatles]

Thanks for the update, Pokerkitty. I'm so sorry this is so hard on you, but I am sure you are not the only one who has felt this way. Stay strong, and remember that it's more than okay to cry if you need to. Any of us here will be more than happy to be a shoulder to cry on for you whenever you need it. I am sending you my love and prayers every day!

[BnLM5]

Yesterday was a blah day. I looked at boobs and actually started crying. Trust me, I'm a very strong person, not a crybaby, so it shocked me. I know this is temporary, but it hurts to look. There is no way I'm letting my husband see this image. I want him to remember my sexy boobs and hopefully the new ones will turn him on even more. Today I feel a little more upbeat. My hubby said he would take me to the track today to cheer me up, but I can't because I have to stay away from germs for a while. Maybe I'll send him over to place some bets for me. Sometimes I get lucky when I do that. I know today will be a better day, its my brother's birthday, his name is Nick. I will always call him Nicky and he is 31. Have a great day and I'll c-ya at the tables.

Pokerkitty I know this have been incredibly rough on you and my heart feels it for you. I don't care how strong or how tough we are the fact remains and is sometimes unfortunate that we are still human. This all happened so fast and we are never prepared for it. It's ok to cry and be afraid it really is God know I cry well God and everybody know that I cry so if you chose not to I will cry for you. And if you decide that it's ok I will cry with you. I so admire your strength. It is refreshing! I hope today was better than yesterday and I hope tomorrow will be better than today. Hang in there baby! You got her whoped. Thoughts and prayers are with you. Can you feel it?

With Love
Lori

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Give me a shout if you need anything Pokerkitty!

I couldn't imagine how difficult things can be, but stay strong and get through this!

We are all fortunate that we're getting to spend some extra time with you here on NDN and that you're opening up and coming out of that shell!

[taylovesthebeatles]

I've been through many surgeries where I feel pretty good for a few days afterward, and then all of a sudden I feel much worse one day. It definitely does happen, but I am still very sorry. Do listen to your doctor for sure, I know you really want to be as independent as you were before and keep your life as normal as possible, but you'll thank yourself for rest later. Just keep taking your pain pills and take it easy! You'll want your energy for after you get your new tits and they're all ready to be enjoyed!