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[Pokerkitty6]

Hi all!!! A few nights ago I told a few of you that I had something to say and I would tell you when I am ready. Well tonight I feel ready to share. I have grade 3 invasive poorly diferentiated ductal type mammory carcenoma. In other words, I have breast cancer. It's freaking me out. Within the next two weeks I will be having a radical double masectomy. Some of my words may be spelled wrong, but you get the idea. It sucks because I have beautiful 36C tits. I mean they are f'in nice. I will undergo reconstruction at the same time and I think I am going to get me some bigger tits. What do ya'll think about 36D? My husband smiles everytime I say it!!!! When I am down and out, my hubby, Tony has been instructed by me to play some of my games. Feel free to ask is that you Tony or Renee? We will be honest with you. My doctors says I should be back to playing golf 6-12 months down the road. I'll just have to learn how to regrip with bigger tits. I probably have to grip the shaft and squeze my tits together. All humor aside, this is very serious for me. I thought I would just like to share my feelings with my NDN family. This site has and will continue to be a blessing for me, especially now, to keep my mind off of things and learn from others experience. I am still working in the golf shop and have my job secured when I have recovered enough to go back to work. Until then, I'll just keep happy thoughts in my head. Cheers and I'll c-ya at the tables!!!!

[freeringo]

PokerKitty Pokerkitty
Hip Hip Hooray
Hip Hip Hooray
Hip Hip Hooray

Time to grab life by the balls and show em what you are really made of. True Grit

[ROGUE63]

good luck and god bless you pokerkitty my thoughts and prayers are with you today

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I hope things went smoothly yesterday Pokerkitty and I hope you are getting some rest!

Get well soon!!!

[BnLM5]

I am bumping this thread as I am waiting patiently for you pokerkitty. I am sure everything went well just hoping the recovery process will be quick. I have been praying for you as many others have as well. We can't wait to hear from you!

[Pokerkitty6]

Hi all!!! I'm home now. I only had to stay overnight. If you can imagine what it woud feel like having your tits cut off...thats exactly what it feels like. I have never experienced so much pain in all my life. This was worst than my hystorectomy. The drains are driving me crazy! Maybe another week of dealing with them. The Lortab painkillers completely knock me out. I ended up having stage 2, grade 3 cancer. They removed 11 lymph nodes-all negative. To top it all off, a cap on one of my teeth feel off and I ended up at the dentist at 8am this morning. I meet with my oncologist on Sunday at 6:45am to see if my cancer has spread and to learn the plan of attack. I've never heard of a Dr. working on Sun. much less at 6:45am. I'm looking forward to this visit. I need to know. My beautiful breasts are gone, but the new set seems to be forming nicely. I'll stay in touch. Thank you all for your support, prayers, and humor along the way. It means the world to me. I'll see you at the game tonight.

[freeringo]

Welcome Home

PokerKitty

[woohoosue]

ok i don't know how i missed this thread ..ive been lax on posting and maybe that is it.... not sure .... but girl ..... gg on handling this as you have .....this is probably the worst part of it that u are going through ...hope some of the pain is clearing for you by now... keep hanging in there... you have shown such strength dealing with this ...i hope my absence in posting has not caused you to think i don't care ... i so do ..... so many years ago I helped my mother in law through hers ... having another with you at doctor appointments is so crutial ... it allows you to just feel and deal with it without also having to deal with remembering all the instructions and details too.

I liked your positive attitrude with going for the extra size ...pump it up baby ..always good ..why settle when its there for the asking ...

i dont know how long it took me to read this whole thread . stoppping to reread to laugh and to cry.. hugs and kissess

i too want to say kudos to Tony .. not sure if i played against him at all? for I hadnt heard of this till now and always just assumed it was you no worse for wear sitting across from me on the table ..hope i never said anything to make you feel uncared for during these past weeks

as for family drawing near ..don't be too hard on them ...loooking back I'm sure you too can recall indifference dealing with their lives too...we are all so busy and life seems to take its toll on our free time... Reading of your families visits warmed my heart as it also painfully brought up my estrangement to my father.... the rallying of your employers and coworkers was a great story also ..... please let others help when they ask ...it really does help them as much as it will help you.

well ok I guess that is it...I look forward to hearing about your recovery.. I too send best wishes for a safe, continued successfull, painlessening path to your complete recovery.

again except my apologies for missing this

[GloBug]

well glad to see u made it out of surgery. hey the pain will subside the cap will be replaced and the boobs will be bigger and better. but your healthy again and thats all that counts. im happy for u and your family kitty. here kitty roar.

[targetguy1]

glad to see you made it home. keep being as strong as you have been. fake

boobs are so much better anyways. just think when you 70 they wont sag

like everyone else at that age. keep up the fight

[BnLM5]

Pokerkitty I am so glad to hear from you. Take it easy! My prayers are still lifted. Thank God for painkillers, that's for sure. Your post is a very good sign of recovery, YaY!

[Pokerkitty6]

Thanks again everybody. Please be assured if Tony ever does play in my place he will let you know straight up. Besides, what man would like to be called Pokerkitty6? I'm sure he will sit in for me one day, but he will let you know for sure. Thanks again all and good nite.

[doorgod2]

welcome back kitty

lets play poker

[taylovesthebeatles]

It's so good to hear from you! I've been praying for you and thinking of you all week. Hang in there sis, and continue to keep us updated on your progress! Much love.

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Welcome "home" Pokerkitty!

Eejit101 said you guys had a blast in the game yesterday and I was bummed I missed it.

Please let us know if there is anything we can do for you!

[freeringo]

Welcome "home" Pokerkitty!

Eejit101 said you guys had a blast in the game yesterday and I was bummed I missed it.

Please let us know if there is anything we can do for you!

We did have a blast.
We all were as dopey as Pokerkitty must have been on her medications.
There were moments of hysteria.

[PANAMHIEST]

im sorry to hear about the cancer. i wish you the best!

[Pokerkitty6]

My arms and my chest hurt like really crazy!!! I'll just have to keep taking my meds and playing poker to keep my mind off things! Ya'll have been great. Thanks again everybody!

[Pokerkitty6]

ok...so I'm a little confused, I wonder why...my oncologist appt.is next Sunday, not this Sunday. I got up at 5:30am for nothing. Well a least I got the paper work out of the way. I'm anxious to have a pet scan. I'm not real good on waiting for answers. I just need to know if the cancer has spread. Well, next appt. is Tue. with the plastic doctor. He can't start "pumping" me up for at lease another week. I'm too sore and tender. I have too many dr's and too many appointments right now. Can't wait for all of this to be over with. C-ya at the tables soon.

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Get some rest and NEVER wake up at 5:30 on a Sunday!

[Pokerkitty6]

When you're in the golf business, you're at work before the sun comes up. It's really beautiful to watch the sunrise on a golf course, especially if you're the first one to tee off. Went to the dr. today and one of my drains came out today. Yey!!! Maybe I can actually sleep on left side tonight. I saw my surgeon yesterday and asked him for some more pain pills, he only gave me 15 a week ago today. He said no, they make you constapated. i asked him for some sleeping pills because I'm not a back sleeper, he said no they are too addicting. I said my god, you cut my boobs completely off I'm gonna need something. He told me to take tylenol and tylenol pm. I said ok, but at home I told my husband the man is crazy, I'm going to be in pain. So, today I see the plastic surgeon and asked him for some pain pills so I can sleep and not be in pain. He said, thats the least we could do, after all we cut your breasts off and you're going to need more when we start "enhancing" you. I dealing with three different drs right now, kinda hard to keep them all straight. I'm also using NDN as my blog on my breast cancer so I can keep my friends updated. I've told a few people to log on here so they can keep up with my status. Hope you all don't mind this and if you don't want to read, then skip it, but 1 in 8 women will be diagnosed with breast cancer in their lifetime, so actually this can be used as a learning tool for alot of people. Men and women alike. This is brand new to me and my husband, but we have come a long way in one month. It still feels like a bad dream. Thank you all for letting me ramble on about this, it really helps me.

[Pokerkitty6]

Yesterday was a blah day. I looked at boobs and actually started crying. Trust me, I'm a very strong person, not a crybaby, so it shocked me. I know this is temporary, but it hurts to look. There is no way I'm letting my husband see this image. I want him to remember my sexy boobs and hopefully the new ones will turn him on even more. Today I feel a little more upbeat. My hubby said he would take me to the track today to cheer me up, but I can't because I have to stay away from germs for a while. Maybe I'll send him over to place some bets for me. Sometimes I get lucky when I do that. I know today will be a better day, its my brother's birthday, his name is Nick. I will always call him Nicky and he is 31. Have a great day and I'll c-ya at the tables.

[freeringo]

Yesterday was a blah day. I looked at boobs and actually started crying. Trust me, I'm a very strong person, not a crybaby, so it shocked me. I know this is temporary, but it hurts to look. There is no way I'm letting my husband see this image. I want him to remember my sexy boobs and hopefully the new ones will turn him on even more. Today I feel a little more upbeat. My hubby said he would take me to the track today to cheer me up, but I can't because I have to stay away from germs for a while. Maybe I'll send him over to place some bets for me. Sometimes I get lucky when I do that. I know today will be a better day, its my brother's birthday, his name is Nick. I will always call him Nicky and he is 31. Have a great day and I'll c-ya at the tables.

Kitty, it's called post traumatic stress syndrome.
You have to expect that for a while.
Crying is very important to your overall emotional balance.
Just don't let depression take over.

That's what we are here for, to help make sure that doesn't happen.
Allow us to cheer you up when ever you need it.
We love you.
NO FEAR

[taylovesthebeatles]

Thanks for the update, Pokerkitty. I'm so sorry this is so hard on you, but I am sure you are not the only one who has felt this way. Stay strong, and remember that it's more than okay to cry if you need to. Any of us here will be more than happy to be a shoulder to cry on for you whenever you need it. I am sending you my love and prayers every day!

[BnLM5]

Yesterday was a blah day. I looked at boobs and actually started crying. Trust me, I'm a very strong person, not a crybaby, so it shocked me. I know this is temporary, but it hurts to look. There is no way I'm letting my husband see this image. I want him to remember my sexy boobs and hopefully the new ones will turn him on even more. Today I feel a little more upbeat. My hubby said he would take me to the track today to cheer me up, but I can't because I have to stay away from germs for a while. Maybe I'll send him over to place some bets for me. Sometimes I get lucky when I do that. I know today will be a better day, its my brother's birthday, his name is Nick. I will always call him Nicky and he is 31. Have a great day and I'll c-ya at the tables.

Pokerkitty I know this have been incredibly rough on you and my heart feels it for you. I don't care how strong or how tough we are the fact remains and is sometimes unfortunate that we are still human. This all happened so fast and we are never prepared for it. It's ok to cry and be afraid it really is God know I cry well God and everybody know that I cry so if you chose not to I will cry for you. And if you decide that it's ok I will cry with you. I so admire your strength. It is refreshing! I hope today was better than yesterday and I hope tomorrow will be better than today. Hang in there baby! You got her whoped. Thoughts and prayers are with you. Can you feel it?

With Love
Lori

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Give me a shout if you need anything Pokerkitty!

I couldn't imagine how difficult things can be, but stay strong and get through this!

We are all fortunate that we're getting to spend some extra time with you here on NDN and that you're opening up and coming out of that shell!