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[Pokerkitty6]

OK all, I'm ready to talk again...I decided to have a double masectomy with reconstruction. The only problem is the reconstruction will be a work in progress. They put something called an expander in to stretch me and pump me up little by little, so my muscle doesn't tear. Each week I will get a little bigger until I have reached my husband's desire. My husband went to the doctor with me a few days ago and we go in this little room where we are waiting for the dr. I go ahead and get undressed, top up, and lay on the table. My husband, Tony says, "Don't you want to wait for him before you lay down?" I figure why wait, time is money. I made sure I had on a cute little skirt so my hubby could get the whole visual! As the surgeon is dicussing the upcoming procedure he says he will draw a picture on my breast where he will make his cuts. At this time, Tony pulls out a special sharpie for the beginning of his new breasts. Can you believe he brought his own sharpie for my dr? As the dr. continues his discussion, he goes on to say he has to throw away my nipples, I say ****!!!! My husband says, Renee!!!! What other word is there? He is going to cut my ****ing nipples off!!! Torture, I tell you. He then says he will make me new ones from a skin graph. I told him to take it from my tummy and make that pretty too. By this time next year he says I can be topless and nobody will know I've ever had work done. I told him I want to look like one of the Winghouse girls. I want that little muffin that sticks out on the side of a bikini top and I want to have a little bounce when I walk. I have clevage now, but a little bounce would be nice too. The dr. said some of those girls are his clients too. I'm still going big. Tony is not allowed to watch the work in progress, he only gets to see the final product. I had a hystorectomy a couple of years ago and I said I got gutted. Now, they are going to filet my tits like a piece of meat. All joking aside, this is very serious for me and writing to you all will make it a little easier. I try to keep a sense of humor and a smile on my face every single day!!! Till my next blog...c-ya at the tables.

[freeringo]

Brilliant doctor sounds like.
What will they think up next?
Can you get your nipple with extra sensitivity?

Glad to her you and your husband have something to look up too.
swing

[BnLM5]

Pokerkitty I have to say this for the record, you have one hell of a great attitude. I think that is wonderful. Nonetheless attitude is the number one healer. Keep your head up and keep thinking positive. What a wonderful and supportive husband you have. I don't know why I have tears in my eyes, if it is because I know you are going through tuff times or that you are so strong with spirit, maybe both. I will keep you in my thoughts and in my prayers. You keep smiling! You have NDN friends for life.

[taylovesthebeatles]

Thank you for the update, Pokerkitty. I will agree with Lori, you are one brave lady! A hysterectomy already, wow. I've heard that's a lot to go through on its own. I wish you all the best in your reconstruction and recovery, and you are daily in my thoughts and prayers. NDN family is forever, and I'm proud to call you my Poker Sister. Love ya hun!

Be sure to post those pics of the new titties when they're all nice and perky!

[Pokerkitty6]

Thanks for the support sister tay and yes all of us are part of the disfuctional NDN family!

[navuta]

sorry.. I posted on the wrong place.!

[nodepositneeded]

Thank you for keeping us updated!

We will have some Pokerkitty Poker in the near future!

[navuta]

Hey..
I hope everythings runs well with your surgery recontruction.
I alos that your will be very happy with your new apearence..
ALL THE BEST>
Positive thinking.!

[PANAMHIEST]

im sorry to hear about the cancer. i wish you the best!

[Pokerkitty6]

My arms and my chest hurt like really crazy!!! I'll just have to keep taking my meds and playing poker to keep my mind off things! Ya'll have been great. Thanks again everybody!

[Pokerkitty6]

ok...so I'm a little confused, I wonder why...my oncologist appt.is next Sunday, not this Sunday. I got up at 5:30am for nothing. Well a least I got the paper work out of the way. I'm anxious to have a pet scan. I'm not real good on waiting for answers. I just need to know if the cancer has spread. Well, next appt. is Tue. with the plastic doctor. He can't start "pumping" me up for at lease another week. I'm too sore and tender. I have too many dr's and too many appointments right now. Can't wait for all of this to be over with. C-ya at the tables soon.

[nodepositneeded]

Get some rest and NEVER wake up at 5:30 on a Sunday!

[Pokerkitty6]

When you're in the golf business, you're at work before the sun comes up. It's really beautiful to watch the sunrise on a golf course, especially if you're the first one to tee off. Went to the dr. today and one of my drains came out today. Yey!!! Maybe I can actually sleep on left side tonight. I saw my surgeon yesterday and asked him for some more pain pills, he only gave me 15 a week ago today. He said no, they make you constapated. i asked him for some sleeping pills because I'm not a back sleeper, he said no they are too addicting. I said my god, you cut my boobs completely off I'm gonna need something. He told me to take tylenol and tylenol pm. I said ok, but at home I told my husband the man is crazy, I'm going to be in pain. So, today I see the plastic surgeon and asked him for some pain pills so I can sleep and not be in pain. He said, thats the least we could do, after all we cut your breasts off and you're going to need more when we start "enhancing" you. I dealing with three different drs right now, kinda hard to keep them all straight. I'm also using NDN as my blog on my breast cancer so I can keep my friends updated. I've told a few people to log on here so they can keep up with my status. Hope you all don't mind this and if you don't want to read, then skip it, but 1 in 8 women will be diagnosed with breast cancer in their lifetime, so actually this can be used as a learning tool for alot of people. Men and women alike. This is brand new to me and my husband, but we have come a long way in one month. It still feels like a bad dream. Thank you all for letting me ramble on about this, it really helps me.