PokerKitty today as I read what you had to say about shaving your hair off I found my self confused by several emotions. I cried for you. It was really weird. Now I feel a calmness around me that I can't explain. First I was lost like I wanted to think of what I could say for you to feel better. But I couldn't think. Then your niece, wow she is learning about some important things in life right now and she doesn't even realize it. You are playing a very big role in her life at this time. I admire you so much for that. And Tony the love you have for him is obvious and he will think you are sexy I would bet on it! Then I cried for myself I think. As I yearn for love like that. When someone really loves you, they love you for who you are, and who you are is that what comes from within. The outer beauty is overlooked by true love. Then I smiled as I see the positive attitude in you with Marissa. While you try to overcome your insecurities about the world around you and what they think about the way you look. I know you don't want to hear this right now but it's true nonetheless so I will say it..... You having no hair is a much bigger deal to you because you are living in the sudden experience. So I am sure as many people/in public were not looking at you for the reason of your hair as it is not new to them like it is to you. You can make it fun, as fun is always good, but remember it is okay to be scared too and it's okay for Marissa to know that. I said a prayer for you both today. As for me I pray that God will give me the peace that passes understanding for what is. Because come what has or will is always hard to understand. I can see the calmness I am feeling now is that peace that passes understanding that I pray for. Keep your chin up and stay strong were gonna beat it. We have some cancer a$$ kicking to do. We are getting there. Losing your hair is knowing that you are one step closer to victory. Lots of Love to you PK from me. Lori