Quote Originally Posted by Pokerkitty6 View Post
Good Morning!! My 2nd day after chemo and I am still a little sick to my stomach, not throwing up, just feel like I could. My port hurt last night. It was stinking me. Is that normal? It feels ok today. I just took a tylenol pm and went back to sleep. I have felt light headed since chemo too. Does that make any sense or is all just in my head. I tell ya this cancer thing still seems like its not real to me, just a bad dream. I applied for short term disability today. I hope that works out. Its hard not getting a paycheck when you're used to it every week. Thanks again everybody for your continued support, I really do appreciate you all!!!
Kitty what do you mean that your port hurt last night?

And are you kidding me? Is it just all in your head? No it is not all in your head. You have been hit in the face with an incredibly difficult situation and it sucks! That is a an under statement to be honest. It is terrifying! It is not a thing that we can just take in and go about our merry way. It is difficult to understand? So it makes perfect sense to me that you feel like your having a bad dream and you are feeling light headed. I am actually surprised that you haven't felt light head from just the thoughts going through your head alone. Not to mention the trauma of all this crap. Chemo treatments are nothing nice. It does not matter who you are. And cancer is not a joke. It has got you down, that's a fact.

Now on the brighter side of things it can't keep you down and that is why we decide to go through with the chemo treatments. And that is why we keep a positive attitude because we can. By doing this we fight strong and we don't back down. Making a good chance that we WIN! What happens when we back down in a fight? We look weak. We give the upper hand or the power to the opponent. We enable the opponent to continue to bully us. Then sometimes we lose. Don't let it keep you down. Your sick and you are gonna feel sick some days more than others. You are going to have bad days and you are going to have better days and you are going to have good days. I know that you can whip this. I don't know if you know you can or not but I do understand that you are scared and unsure of things, but know that you can whip it and you will!!! Here is an for you. :+) that is a smiley with a positive attitude.