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[Pokerkitty6]

Hi all!!! A few nights ago I told a few of you that I had something to say and I would tell you when I am ready. Well tonight I feel ready to share. I have grade 3 invasive poorly diferentiated ductal type mammory carcenoma. In other words, I have breast cancer. It's freaking me out. Within the next two weeks I will be having a radical double masectomy. Some of my words may be spelled wrong, but you get the idea. It sucks because I have beautiful 36C tits. I mean they are f'in nice. I will undergo reconstruction at the same time and I think I am going to get me some bigger tits. What do ya'll think about 36D? My husband smiles everytime I say it!!!! When I am down and out, my hubby, Tony has been instructed by me to play some of my games. Feel free to ask is that you Tony or Renee? We will be honest with you. My doctors says I should be back to playing golf 6-12 months down the road. I'll just have to learn how to regrip with bigger tits. I probably have to grip the shaft and squeze my tits together. All humor aside, this is very serious for me. I thought I would just like to share my feelings with my NDN family. This site has and will continue to be a blessing for me, especially now, to keep my mind off of things and learn from others experience. I am still working in the golf shop and have my job secured when I have recovered enough to go back to work. Until then, I'll just keep happy thoughts in my head. Cheers and I'll c-ya at the tables!!!!

[sloeddie]

only good things happen to good people wishing you well and best

[eejit101]

As your sworn so much already, i figured ill keep it up.

Holy **** that sucks.

The only thing i can say (as if i posted just saying "thats bad, im sorry for you" youd find that a bit boring) is the following.

1 - That does suck, and i do feel sorry for you.
2 - That was the funnyest acceptance of cancer post ive ever read. I love it.
3 - Go one size bigger, im all about the tits!!!
4 - Tell your husband Ill pwn him.


Im sure im about to get drowned out by serious posts from people with experience in this and "belief in God", so i wont do anything that corny.

I will say i really hope and wish your OK, if you ever need to chat to someone in a serious manner, let me know, and obviously you have your family and whatever, but you cant talk to them in the same way i figured, its just easier to open up to someone you dont know. Dunno why.

And if i knew what u looked like id comment on your boobs, but i dont, so i wont! (though im sure they are perfect)

[taylovesthebeatles]

Everything that eejit said, I can't say it better.

Thank you for your openness, humor, and honesty. I'm not sure if I could do that in your shoes.

I really do wish you all the best.

Your poker sis,
Tay

P.S. Go 36D or DD!

[GloBug]

well i am sorry to hear that u have breast cancer my sincere thoughts are with u. i have been thru it with family members and it is painful even when being on the outside looking in. well to me it sounds like they caught it early. thats a good thing. as for your boobs 36 dd's are excellent. my wife has them but hers are real. dont know what 36dd feel when they are fake but no matter what the results your hubby is gonna see the difference and love em. i guarantee u will if u like your 36 c's. all the best of luck to u and u will definetly be in my thoughts. take care and thanks for sharing this with us. leep us updated as things happen and please post pic of your new boobs. lol

[taylovesthebeatles]

Yeah definitely post a pic! I also have real 38 DD ones, and they are excellent! You'll love them, and so will your hubby!

[terbo71]

Hi Renee. I just wanted to let you know how sorry I am to hear about the cancer and I am hoping the best for you and your family. I also want to thank you for having the strenghth and courage it must have taken to share this with us here. It is nice to see you see you still have your humor. 36D?! Holy crap! Makes my back hurt thinking about it! Glad I am a guy, it kills me just to pack my son around the grocery store for a bit.
Best wishes Renee.

[nodepositneeded]

Please let me know if you ever need anything Pokerkitty! You know how to find me if you do.

I will keep you in my thoughts and I hope you get through this with a smile on your face.

[eejit101]

"a smile on your face..... and a huge pair of boobs!"

[Pokerkitty6]

and a smile on his face too!!!!! You guys are awesome!!!

[doorgod2]

im sorry to here that hope for the best for ya

[slicky111]

Yeah, I see why u r stressed out. Just play more poker and maybe that will keep your mind elsewhere.

Yeah, I'm with hubby, 36D sounds nic to me also

[Pokerkitty6]

I was in sooo much pain last night, more than any night so far. I don't know if it is the swelling going down or if I just did too much. I loaded the dishwasher and did laundry and now I hurt like hell. My pain pills are helping a little bit. I wanted to take another one, but I didn't cause it says every 6 hours. My doctor told me not to do any house work. Well, I figured that was over a week ago, it would be ok now. NOT!! Today, I just feel really tender. I'll get an update soon. I see three different doctors, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, I'm way too young to be seeing this many doctors. Enough about breast cancer for now. c-ya at the tables.

[woohoosue]

awww girl ..im so sad you are having such a hard time of this...hope things lighten up soon ....hey that is exactly what you did... dont do anything...i dont care how messy things get ....someone will get to them when they can and if not so be it...... please take it easy ...the trauma is enuf dont add to the pain by doing too much..... painless days are coming ..hang in there

[BnLM5]

Pokerkitty if the doctor say's not to do any house work, why are you doing housework? Why not take it easy so the healing process can take place? Now you need to just take it easy no matter how much you don't want to. You better be glad I am not there. I am the kind of nurse that makes you do what your supposed to. But I am not mean. However you need to listen because the doctor it telling you what is best. And we want the best. Okee Dokee!

I'm so sorry for the pain! That sucks! I have said a special prayer for the pain now.

[BnLM5]

Pokerkitty I was reading the newspaper today.

And an article about a breast cancer fund raiser

caught my eye. It is being held in Colusa a little

town about 30 miles west from where I live.

Any way I thought of you as I have been a lot

lately. I wanted to share this with you because

I thought what they were calling it was way cool.

So I thought you might appreciate it......

"Bowling for Boobs" Lol What a great idea!

Isn't that something? I always stop for breast cancer

fund raisers. I think it is a great way to help.

Hope you are feeling better today!

[taylovesthebeatles]

Pokerkitty- here are lyrics to a song by one of our favorite bands that has had me thinking of you lately. I hope it can help you get through these times a little easier. I'll also post a link to a video so you can hear what it sounds like.

It's called "Pink" and it's by a group called Carbon Leaf.

So, she catches herself
When she looks down, or too far away
She knows the pain in her side
Is just a mirage and mirages will fade

And so it begins, the mirage settles in
But the sky is light pink before violet
Cause everything's now, everything's now
She notices everything

As she puts on the pink
Her world turns to pink

So, she shows all her teeth when
She's taking the photos, she knows she has friends
She wants colors like these to
Remind her of being a young girl again

She quietly pleads, God just remove
Everything that the doctors don't see
Cause everything's now, everything's now
Please remove everything that's not me

And she puts on the pink
Her world turns to pink

She puts on the pink
Her world turns to pink

She puts on the pink(7x)
She puts on the pink...

YouTube - Carbon Leaf- Pink

[Pokerkitty6]

B bowling for boobs is a great idea!!! Tay that song is beautiful and made me cry. The words went straight to my heart. Some of them I have said lately. It's very powerful...

[Pokerkitty6]

I got my other drain removed today, yay! After that, I went to have a PET scan. I have never had one before. If you have ever had melanoma before, you have to tell them because they have to take deeper images. I also learned you should not hold an infant of toddler for about 20 minutes after your scan because the radiation from you could affect their tyroid. Never heard that before. Oh well, live and learn. I can see how people freak out getting PET scan's because you are sliding back and forth in a big tube, after they inject you with purple dye. In the situations, I just take little cat naps. That seems to work best for me. After I got home today, I got the worst headace. I wonder if it is from the dye. Surgery for my port is still scheduled for Tue. I tell ya breast cancer is a pain in the ***!! No doubt about it. Not only for me, but for Tony too!! I saw on tv today hot dog warnings and cancer. I have been told some of the top cancer causing foods are hot dogs, bacon, sausage, and french fries. There is so much to learn and I bet whoever is reading this learned something about PET scans today. I know I did. C-ya at the tables.

[bouks999]

i am so sorry to hear that when my daughter was diagnosed with leukemia i was devastated i cried a whole lot but shes pulling through and so will you and as far as boob jobs go i would like one too if i could afford it lol. It is nice that you are taking it one day at a time. Cancer is very hard. My daughter lost hair and she was sick from t he khemo so if you need advice im here. I may have not gone through it but my daughter is. So i know how you feel.

[taylovesthebeatles]

Carbon LeafBlock Of Wood Ringtones Left Send "Block Of Wood" Ringtone to your Cell Carbon LeafBlock Of Wood Ringtones Right

Grab your heart we need to leave
There's no time to cry or grieve
For the fallen family tree

Rise above the flooding plain
Crouching low to duck the flame
Generations against the grain
Up in smoke and down the drain

If the fire, if the flood
Burns the tree and thins the blood
If your tears don't want to dry
I can help you cry
Through the night
Through the night and day
I can't your pain away
But I can help you cry

We'll cut the branch from this tree
Carve a place for you and me
A wooden seat that we can string
From a branch where we can swing

We'll take this block of wood
Carve it down and sand it good
When finished it will be
A souvenir of the family tree

And if the fire, if the flood
Burns the tree and thins the blood
If your tears don't wanna dry

I can help you cry
Through the night
Through the night and day
I can't take your pain away
But I can help you cry
Through the night
Through the night and day
I can't take your pain away
I can try but

God help me please
Come save the family tree
My friends I broke them all
When falling off the wall

In the ash I found an ember
Something warm to help remember
A block of wood that used to be
A strong tall family tree

A strong tall family tree
Blowing in the breeze

Cry through the night
Through the night and day
I can't take your pain away
But I can help you cry
Through the night
Through the night and day
I can't take your pain away
But I can help you cry

"Block of Wood" by Carbon Leaf

My prayers are with you, sis. Remember that it's okay to cry. You will fight this and we will be there with you. Thanks for keeping us updated on your progress, girl. Cancer has no regard for age, it hits everyone from infants to the elderly. The key is faith and fighting, which you have going for you. Much love to my dear Renee!

[Pokerkitty6]

Bouks, I am sooo sorry for your little girl. I wish you only the best, you have alot on your plate right now and you have to be extra strong for your little angel. Tay and B, my girls who I can always count on, thank you for everything. I was in chemo for 4 hours yesterday and today I had to go get a shot to keep my white blood count up. Apparently 24 hours after chemo you will always get this shot. My dr. told me to expect a fever, bone pains, and pain that feels like I might be having a heart attack. I told her I'm glad she told me that or I would think I'm having a panic attack. She told me to stay on my Zanex, I'm probably spelling that wrong. That little pill makes me feel like I'm high, I kinda like it! I got my Zofran for nasuea today, thank God. Those have made me feel better all day. She told me I should not drink alcohol because my liver is being overworked by all the chemo and other meds I'm on. I asked about medical marijuana, but it's not legal in the state of Florida. Hey, you can't blame a girl for asking. I'll just have to be happy with the meds I have. A couple of them aren't that bad! I sure do miss my grapebombs!!! C-ya at the tables!

[BnLM5]

Pokerkitty are you feeling any better today. has the sick feeling eased at all. I have been wondering if you are better as some feel better in a couple of days and some stay sick. I am hoping and praying that you are one of the lucky ones and will only feel sick for a bit and then it is gone. Lots of Love Lori

[taylovesthebeatles]

I'm really glad you got your Zofran, that's great Kitty! I hope you start feeling better real soon. And definitely stay away from the alcohol- I'll drink some for you tonight how's that?

[Pokerkitty6]

Good Morning!! My 2nd day after chemo and I am still a little sick to my stomach, not throwing up, just feel like I could. My port hurt last night. It was stinking me. Is that normal? It feels ok today. I just took a tylenol pm and went back to sleep. I have felt light headed since chemo too. Does that make any sense or is all just in my head. I tell ya this cancer thing still seems like its not real to me, just a bad dream. I applied for short term disability today. I hope that works out. Its hard not getting a paycheck when you're used to it every week. Thanks again everybody for your continued support, I really do appreciate you all!!!