Torn In Two

[NeverWinHere]

Well he pleaded not guilty in court yesterday, and now we go to trial. This is such bs. Now my poor daughter has to get up there and testify, she was the only witness. I'm going crazy. I can't sleep, relax, think, i feel like a zombie.

[knowledge]

please just dont have a glass of wine. Go for a walk and talk to someone close, i hope all works out well. I understand the feeling ona different kind of way and I have read your posts. This is the time to take charge and not sit back and relax with a drink. Stand up and be proud for yourself and your daughter and shine in court. The judge will see it and award you full custody, and make that a-hole pay

[NeverWinHere]

Well jury selection begins Wednesday. I am so uncomfortable with this. Have any of you been in a trial, I need some info on what to be prepared for when they question me or my daughter. This is making me even more stressed, I thought I was going to die earlier, I couldnt breathe well and had to keep focusing on my breathing it was so hard, I almost blacked out several times. Could this be stress?

I just want this **** to be over, so I can pick up the pieces and start over.

[Dallas12]

The only thing i can say is to tell the truth. And bring someone with you to the court house. And when you see this ASSHOLE in the hallway just do not say anything to him. And be prepared for a lot of question about your personal life. Well i hope everthing works out for you.

[NeverWinHere]

So I am feeling pretty good about going to court, feeling strong and SUPPORTED. Not sure what happens after jury selection Wednesday, but will let you know. I hope this goes fast, so I can be done with it, and put it behind me.

Honestly though, I feel really lonely. I mean even though I haven't been in love with this guys for a long time, I still always had a companion there with me you know. I'm not used to being alone in that way. Been with him since I was 14. Not saying I want him, just saying it is hard. Everything has just been flipped around so hard to get used to it all, but it is for the best I know. I really really really just want someone to hold me and tell me they are going to protect me. Anone from Cali? Gosh here I go, getting all emotional, sorry guys! Hope you get what I am saying and why I did that!

SO jury selection starts tomorrow, and not sure what happens next. I am pretty anxious, and ready to do this. I think once this is done, and I dont have to see or talk to him anymore, I can put it behind me, and work on the rest of the things that I am feeling and going through. Thanks for the support, as always.

Today is the 1st day since this all happened where I have not had a drink, or any pills to numb the pain, it is going better than I thought but still hard.

My bruises on the inside are far worse than the visible ones. I am really thinking I need to get someone to talk to. i just feel all those emotions just racing through me all day. It is hard to process anything. I think it would help to get some of this is, and begin to repair myself.

SO this is going to be a long, slow road, but with your help, and support it doesn't seem so long, thanks!

[kingsnthahole]

listen, if there's one thing i learned after screwing up alot, alot, alot of times in college, it's that things always seem to work themselves out...not at all saying you screwed up, just using my personal experiences for example...and that guy you were with, he's not a man, he's a little girl for beating up on a woman...guys that beat women, usually dont have the balls to stand up to real men when the situation arises...stuff like this angers me very much, bc my mother went through physical and mental abuse from her second husband, whom i threatened with a baseball bat at age 17...anyways, goodluck in court, give yuor daughter a hug bc you both need it, and like tupac says...Keep ya head up!

[NeverWinHere]

listen, if there's one thing i learned after screwing up alot, alot, alot of times in college, it's that things always seem to work themselves out...not at all saying you screwed up, just using my personal experiences for example...and that guy you were with, he's not a man, he's a little girl for beating up on a woman...guys that beat women, usually dont have the balls to stand up to real men when the situation arises...stuff like this angers me very much, bc my mother went through physical and mental abuse from her second husband, whom i threatened with a baseball bat at age 17...anyways, goodluck in court, give yuor daughter a hug bc you both need it, and like tupac says...Keep ya head up!

Yeah actually he was too ****y. I called the cops on him long ago was about 6 yrs ago, he was hitting me, not as sever as this time but still. Anyways this rookie cop shows up, and he got all the info and was telling my ex he is under arrest, and to put his hands behind his back. My ex told him, "you ain't arresting nobody, see that dog right there(he pointed to our dog, (a big american bulldog) if you try to touch me him and I will fu*k you up" I heard this i was inside they were outside, the cop then comes in the house and tells me, "is there somewhere you can go for the night, I don't feel like getting my *** kicked" I was like are you fn serious? No there aint nowhere I can go. Anyways after that, I never called them anymore, and I was hit a lot, b ut this last time, we were in a new city, and I was tired of it, and he hurt me really bad, so I called again, and I was so worried they wouldt do anything, but they did.