ok wine is a good place to start ...i mean in your search for love .... i have a love for the stuff myself ..you have to try a few to get a goood one (you'll find that with men too).... the love of your child is the best ...hey i was a single mom for 4 years ... i found my taste in men led me to heart ache ..my daughter was the one that had a more keen insight ....trust your daughter's intuition ..... I lived with myhusband for a whole year before I was ready to say yes to marriage again ...he was my daughter's choice and after 26 years and 2 boys later ..I can say she did alright. She loved him so much and her father never could settle with her so when her wedding came along ....He was the one asked to walk her down the aisle.
Love will come again ... Be careful not to push it away to fast. real love grows over time ... that love at first sight crap is "I want sex".... and that aint bad either ...have lots of that as long as you treat it as it is and not confuse it with love. ok don't know if any of this is helpful but it comes from one who lived through it.

good luck in all things...I know single motherhood is tuff ... Take time for yourself too while you smother your daughter with love ... Mr Right will find you.

all i can say now is ....stop smoking .... the benefit to your body alone makes it worthwhile ...

The Cleaning thing..... i used to be that way ..one day it will just come to you that your happiness should be your main concern ... your cleaning all the time is your way of punishing yourself .... when u are happy with yourself all those around you that love you will be taken care of ... for that is their only wish just as yours is for them to be. A clean house is not a bad thing tho..

Sounds to me like you are doing just fine for a girl that had to grow up way to fast ... Can't imagine what that was like for u... I'm sorry you had to carry such a load at such a young age .... ok that was the mother in me.

hugs and kisses to you and your daughter.