hi all, good day.... i'm just humming and hawing right now about a move. I HATE moving as my family has been doing A LOT in the last 6 - 7 years and I'm tired of it. I see no way NOT to do it but who knows.
Well here's my story..... about 7 years ago i wanted something different. i thought there was bigger and better things out there and life would have to change if i ran away from the small town. I left my full time year round job to move to the city. The move was fun and exciting and new opportunities arose.... I went back to school to be a preschool teacher and that amounted to nothing, apparently children are the hardest to work with, lol. Then the fun died and the same ole life kicked in again. the same issues, the same problems, the same outcomes etc. I was in a rut just as much in a city than home. Then one day I was pushed beyond my sanity and I packed up and moved to a different province thinking things would get better and change.
Once again the move was fun and exciting. I got a real good job and everything was NEW. this again didn't last long as the stuck in a rut routine kicked in, and same everything. NOTHING Changed.
My sanity again was pushed to the limits, I packed up the car and came home. Back to the small town were my friends and family are. We stayed for maybe a year and then moved to another town a few hours away for employment. Ha, was that ever the worst decision ever as I only lasted there for MAYBE 2 months. That town is WORST than my home town. They don't offer any type of life at all unless you have a trade. I guess it works for people who don't like to do anything but work and party. But that was not a place I can bring my son to as it has nothing to offer him.
so the car was packed up again and now I'm home. I really like here, I love my job I stumbled upon and my son has his whole family and friends. He claims he hates the schools, but what child loves school? Here we have stability, support, and my family is huge. We're a very close family and visit each other and always have dinners together all the time. Everywhere else we lived we didn't have that at all, we actually had nobody but each other. anyway, things worked out for me very well by coming back home, i really don't want to leave again but circumstances have changed everything. I can say screw it all and make myself happy and stay. Or I can bite the bullet, comprise my happiness and go? I dunno, it seems like i'm always the one compromising, there's no negiotiating and it's driving me crazy. My son will be happy with any decision I make, but what kinda life would it be somewhere else that can't offer me what I've found at home and always had?
anyway i'm just rambling and nothing's making sense. I guess this doesn't make sense to any of you either as I really don't want to get into details. I just wish things could smarten up and change for the better.