A point in my life.... (tl/dr)

[KaciBlakely]

Im 24. Im male. Im intelligent. Im not being modest or anything im just stating simple facts without wanting to appear like a vain egotist. Im called Phil! Hi.

With having read this whole entire post and really contemplating on what you are saying or what I interpret to what you are trying to say, this is the most least egotistical post you have made. And I mean that as a good thing, even if it sounded a bit back handed.

My problem is i have no idea what i want to do in life. I mean, yeah, we all have dreams about perfect lives and perfect jobs, playing poker for a living, winning the lottery, basically having everything handed to us on a plate.

Fact of life - This is stupid. It NEVER happens. Well it does, but the odds of it being me? 1 in 14 million. Probably more.

At least you have the understanding of this now. There are so many people that quit school/university trying to become the next Durrrr or Raptor when they really need to just come to the grips that it's not going to happen and being an average or an ordinary person in society isn't a bad thing.

There is a general public for a reason.

I never have, because i dont want to appear weak, and im too damn lazy to even think if its affected me.

I don't think that going to therapy or talking to someone would be something people would see as weak.

That's why they have hot lines and organizations who can help when you are in need.

My problem is simple. Ive missed the prime time in my life to obtain a career. I know i still have alot of options, but in my life ive become lazy, and while i am getting by right now, im in debt a bit (as is everyone i guess), i dont earn a whole lot, and am constantly bored. I like being tested, i feel thats hwy in poker i play better when i play good people, as im constantly thinking, thats why in bigger tourneys and higher stakes i do better, as its mroe on the line, more pressure. Im the first to admit i make some DUMBASS moves when im bored or have no interest. I actually lost all in once on purpose in a $5 buyin id regged for by accident, because i couldnt be bothered to play a whole lot of time against idiots for like $20. Stupid huh???

So yeah, im 24, and i have no idea what i want to do in life.

I think no matter how old you are, you get to a point where you think to yourself, what am I doing here? Where is my life going, and how did it get to this point so fast?

I went through that stage and even though I'm happily married I'll be staring at the wall/out at space and just be thinking, this isn't even what I want.

And this my husband will do something and it will clear the doubt out for a bit, but I don't think someone can ever be 100% sure of themselves.

And that's where the insecurities and questions come in.

I would lvoe to be a teacher, but 4 years of college seems alot, you get a grant to help, but in 4 years time... im 28. Thats half my life (if i keep smoking lol).

Aren't university courses just 3 years over there? I researched when I went to college years ago and was thinking about going abroad so I was just wondering for some clarity because I'm curious.

And I don't think you are ever too old to go to school.

The way i look at it is, i either stay where i am, get promoted soon and mvoe up. Or, go abroad in summer, earn a decent wage working in Majorca(Spain) in a resort doing whatever i can, save up, and either invest ther ein a bar (Easily done), or bring that home and move somrewhere like London/Manchester, and find a real 9-5 job, or i go to university.

Anyone got any thoughts/advice/comments??

I can't really tell you what to do because I don't know what is going to make you happy in the end, when you don't either. It's your own decision and it sounds cliche to say you have to follow your heart, but you kind of do.

Just remember you only get one life, so do things while you still can.

That's all my advice and I was being 100% sincere so I hope you get that and that, that came across.

Gl mate.