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Originally Posted by Pokerkitty6
Today is a most beautiful day indeed and hearing your are feeling better makes my day even more enjoyable.
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Originally Posted by Pokerkitty6
Today is a most beautiful day indeed and hearing your are feeling better makes my day even more enjoyable.
Thank you for the update Renee, it is always appreciated. I hope you're feeling stronger every single day! Much love to you, and I hope you get the situation with Marissa sorted out really soon.
I have a special gift for you (and anyone else on the forum) today:
Carbon_Leaf_Pink - Download
It is a link to a website that will let you get a free download of the Carbon Leaf song, "Pink" that I posted for you earlier in this thread, for Breast Cancer Awareness Month. I hope it lifts your spirits!
uuuuuggggggg, what a depressing day for me. Just came back from the dr and she extended my chemo for three more months. I hate it! I can't stand it! I'm sooooo tired of cancer! Thanks for letting me vent....
Damn it PK! I am sorry! Three more months is not good news at all I agree. If you don't mind, what did she say about the extension? I am curious about her reason? I know that cancer sucks and so does chemo but it is obviously working. If it were not making any progress she would have stopped the chemo. So as stupid as it may sound this might be a good thing. If you can see the positive side of this you will feel better. I realize it is not an easy thing to do. But try! You know that I am going to remind you that your attitude is very important here! Surly you can feel the difference in the way you feel when your attitude is good than when it is not so good? I have said another prayer for you just moments ago and I will continue to do so. Nonetheless I have not stopped. I think about you every single day! That is the honest to God truth! I hold you close in my heart PK!
I sure do wish there was something that I could do to make this go away, or just to make you feel at your best at this moment. I am sorry that I can't do that. :( But I shall keep you filled with the positive things as it is easier for me to see them than for you to see them. And I do! : ) Lots of love PK and prayer lifted for you! Smile! Okay now smile one more time for me.... A little bigger... there you go, that is better. Now you can cry if you want to and release some of the tension. But if you decide not to rest assured that I will for you. Hang in there hon! Every little thing is going to be alright.
I wanted to tell you that I enjoyed our games yesterday! Thank you, I was tickled to see you there! It made my day!
Awwwww B, you're such a sweetheart. I have triple negetative basal breast cancer and carry the genes for bc and ovaian cancer. I believe this means, I have triple the cancer cells which are negative for now, so she has to treat my cancer aggressively. She has told me many times and I have aggressive cancer, so she treats it the same way. I had a rough day yesterday, but today is a new day, a great day, and yes you did make me smile.
As far as seeing you at inetbet, the games were fun. I'll have a hard time remembering your other name. inetbet is the only casino I play slots and bj at. They are very easy to work with, so far no problems. Thanks again for everything.
http://photos-f.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos..._1840775_n.jpg
My cousin sends me this picture and I asked where is this house.
I lived there. lol
Then she goes on to remind me that I wrecked my bike there and broke my arm and got my toe ripped off.
We certainly need each other to remind us of all the fun we had growing up.
Love you Kitty. Stay strong for us, we'll hold you up. Praying for you always!
Your welcome PK. But I thought we were at Club World? :) I am happy that you had a great day! Have a happy day today as well!Quote:
Originally Posted by BnLM5
I just back from chemo and the reason it was extended was because I have aggressive cancer. I go for and hour and half once a week for 3 months. She hasn't decided about radiation yet and when this is all over pet scans once or twice a year. I have a 50-50 chance of cancer coming back in an area other than the ovary....I think inetbet and club world are the same. I was at inetbet. I can't play the bj tourneys at both casinos because they are related...says I can only play at one. I tried one night with my desk top and laptop...Thanks again everybody! You give me inspiration. I am a very positive person and I do see the glass half full!!! Luv Ya All!!!!
Hi all! Had chemo today and thank God, it's not making me sick anymore. The chemo drug is called Taxotere and I take it for one and half hours. 9 more weeks to go....
That is so good to hear PK! I am so glad that you are not sick!!!! And nine weeks doesn't sound so bad. Well at least it sounds better than months. : )
You are still in my prayers and in my thoughts every day. Much love to you PK, from me! I am counting down the weeks with you. Hang in there baby!
How are things with Marissa? And How is Tony holding up? Give them a hello from me if you like. :) Lori
Marissa and Tony are good, except Marissa got an F on her report card in math. How do you parents punish an F these days?
Oh Boy! I can't believe that Marissa does not have more respect for herself then that.Quote:
Originally Posted by Pokerkitty6
With this kind of situation the first question is to get to the bottom of the problem. Is it a difficulty in learning math or is the difficulty in doing what needs to be done, such as homework etc.? Then go from there. Marissa obviously has issues in many areas but at this point her biggest problem it sounds like is her attitude. Has she any idea just how important her "EDUCATION" is? Or is she dead set on being a "LOSER" ? It is a shame to see a young girl with such wonderful opportunity and great potential just throw it away feeling sorry for herself and causing problems.
I wonder if Marissa realizes just how quickly childhood passes us by. By the time she does, she will be looking back wishing she could do it all again having you and social workers loving and pleading with her to be a good girl. Having things handed to her. How quickly reality comes upon us as adults. Having to pay the consequences for our actions. And how dearly they cost. When the day comes and it slaps her in the face that she is a big girl and there is nobody to pick her up and take her home.
No education these days = living on the streets hungry or if your lucky maybe she can find a friend, then maybe at night she can sleep in their car. Maybe. I mean really if she can't pass math in this grade, she will never pass math in high school and college will be out of the question.
Would it not be more productive for Marissa to put her energy and anger into herself really. Acting like a brat is hurting nobody but herself. But if she focused all this energy on proving to the world that she is of worth and filling her time with accomplishments rather than idiocy it would be in HER best interest. The only thing she is doing is cutting off her nose to spite her face. Now what kind of sense can she make of that.
PK Here is a big sigh ............. for you! I gotta hand it to you for being one tough cookie. Because I would want to be knocking some sense into her by now. And we both know, that can't happen. Patients on your part is all you can do and consistency!!! She is either going to make or break herself, is what it all will boil down to.
I have you all in my prayers!!!! Lots of Love to you and your family. : )
I'm glad to hear your doing well KITTY! 9 weeks is nothing,hang in there sweetie,sounds like you got it going your way now.Kids will be kids,when I was in school I would rather drink castor oil than do my English homework.I really hope ur ok and will keep ya in my thoughts.
ok...6 more chemos to go! My dr. still hasn't made up her mind on radiation or not. Hopefully not! I already told you my hair is starting to grow back. My husband's new nick name for me (our friend Marty) started it.....Chia Pet. Ya gotta admit it's pretty funny. I'm not wearing anything on my head these days, just watching other people look at lucious locks!!! "God is Great, Beer is Good and people ARE crazy!"
I'm just amazed at how someone can literally "glow" in a post online!Quote:
Originally Posted by Pokerkitty6
yeah i must agree with ndn on this. you are glowing. took my shine away from me. lol i love to hear things from strong people like u . makes me think the world is good. keep striving CHIA PET it will all be done soon.
Glad your doing well Chia Pet,hope you don't need the radiation and the chemo knocks this out,best wishes girl.
everybody crazy you crazy too
keep laughing girlfriend.
much love
All I can say to you PK is WOW! You are amazing!!!Quote:
Originally Posted by Pokerkitty6
Hi All!! It's been a while. TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF CHEMO!!!! 6 1/2 months worth, wow. Now all I have to do is have a colinostopy, my ovary removed, my "real implants" put in 2 or 3 pet scans a year and I'm good. I have a 50-50 chance of cancer coming back, so I hope like hell my glass is half full!!! NO MORE CHEMO!!!! I can't say it enough. I also went to court today for Marissa's dependency hearing and it looks like we talked the judge into another few months with us. We are hoping she can go back to her father soon. We love her but she needs to be with her Dad.
thats great news PK. happy to hear that its come to a end. the glass is half full. just keep up with what is needed of u and all will be goood. and yes she does need her daddy.
Thats great news KITTY, a little good news is great.I hope it stays gone and never ever returns.I agree with Glo, if all is well there she does need her Dad.Glad your ok and welcome back.
wooohoooo! GF ..... I'm so happy for ya... I know it's hard for you to feel confident about your recovery but it will come ...may take a year or two but it will come. Great News about getting this part of the treatment behind u though!
Somebody's gonna have to wipe this smile off my face! I just heard the doorbell ring at 6:15pm and it was UPS. My father-in-law, Barney from Duluth, MN, just sent me a bottle of Dom Perignon to have an "after chemo party"!!!! He must really love me! Wow! Should I save it for Valentine's Day? He thought I should open it tomorrow! I'm thinking a special day, but then again, no more chemo makes alot of special days!!!! I still can't believe!
WOW!Thats great KITTY congrats,I'm sure your gonna enjoy it whenever ya decide to open it.
i agree ..either way the gift says what all of us are thinking for u......HOORAY! to be threw this hard leg of your recovery! any day u choose will be the best day to do it.....HOOOORAY!
Hi all! It's been a while...had my first colonoscopy and no colon cancer! I had surgery yesterday to remove my ovary and good news no ovarian cancer! Bad news is I just got my Pet scan results back and it shows 2 enlarged lymph nodes in my chest wall. I go in for a Cat scan on Wed. I have never had a cat scan before so I really don't know what the difference is...It's scary, but I plan on winning!!! In the mean time I have been keeping my mind off of it by playing slots at inetbet and poker at tilt and stars. No cash outs, but enjoying my time spent there. I love the new rush poker at tilt, you'll have to check it out. Peace and love sent your way!
I love you PK!
Hope You Got an "all clear" from the CAT scan.....Be strong!
Thanks all! It looks like my breast expanders are causing my lymph node inflammation. Just to be sure my doctor is keeping a close eye on me. I should have my "real implant" surgery scheduled soon. This has been a long road and I appreciate you all coming along on the ride.
OMG, thank God! I have been worried. I am so glad to hear that or read that whatever it is I am so glad!!!!! You have had a tough battle but you won, PK you won!!!! Finally some tears of joy! I knew you could do it! Thanks for the update! And your friendship!!!! I love you PK even though I have never met you in person you are my kind of friend and I love you!!!! I will continue to pray for you and your family. (Tony, Marissa, and your brother)
Hey Ladies! You know your girls best! Touch them, feel them, know them. Get your partner involved, it's alot more fun that way! Stay up on your mammograms. Today I am having my tissue expanders removed and my big girl implants put in. Wish me luck!
Good luck PK! But mostly have fun with em! Your the best and I love ya! You are one tough cookie! ; ) And thank you!
Hey all! Just an update...my implants are the biggest they make 800 cc's, but on me they are not as big as they would be on a normal girl. Hahaha, I'm not normal, we all already knew that! The doc had to cut out so much tissue from my chest wall the implant has to take up some space inside my chest as well, thats why they call it breast reconstruction. I am a very large C cup or a small D cup....time will tell once they settle. I had a Pet Scan last week and it shows no cancer, just a 2.2 cm mass in front of my heart. Today I get a call I have to have a Cat Scan tomorrow to find out more about the mass, depending on the mass the doc may send me to a lung specialist. I'm soooooo confused right now, I'm not sure which way to turn. At least we're getting back to our poker tournaments to take my mind off all of this! Update on my neice Marissa, she is very close to being reunified with her Dad! They love each other so much and as I said before she belongs with her father. I will miss her and she will be in my life ALOT!!!!! As usual, thanks for listening. xoxoxo
Kitty
I am so sorry for what you have been through ,I am a firm believer that Positive thinking goes a long way when you are battling Cancer .I am a big girl too and I am sure 'normal implants' would get lost in my armpits somewhere too lol.How are you feeling?I have a friend who lost both breasts to Cancer and last two years have been difficult ,she just started her reconstruction about 3 months ago.You made it this far ,I am sure the Mass is worrying you but please stay strong for now and think good things!
Tracy
Just wanted to say as the owner of 42DD and weighing 160 pounds I wanted to get a reduction .I hated my breasts because I am top heavy and buying a dress to fit my boobs means i am wearing a flour sack on the bottom.If it were not for my husband's attachment to them i would be very happy as a 36B .My friend wore bags of water in her bra for a week thinking she wanted bigger and thank god she didn't go that route.I will say additional prayers for your back ,neck and shoulders lol
Ha! Tracy you're funny. I wanted the bigger the better....but something is better than nothing. I do have some nice clevage, I just have to get used to them. Now my husband is ready to do some shots :) !!!! I feel good and have a positive attitude, I'm just tired of all the scans and doctors. Too many scans can kill ya. Then one day hearing about my heart, the next my lungs and they don't really know what it is. I'm having my Cat Scan now at 7:45 in the morning. I'm not sure if this is the right decision or not. Does your friend have triple negative bc? That's what I have and it's hard to learn about. For example, it is ok for me to have dairy? I get caught up on the internet and loose a grip on all the information out there. Last year, I said I'm looking forward to 2010, now I say I'm looking forward to 2011. I really need a break from all the appointments. Thanks for listening, this has really become kind of like my bc diary...
Hooray for new boobies! I'm always praying for you, sis, remember that. I'm glad Marissa is getting back with her dad. I know you will miss her but I do hope you'll get to see her and be as involved in her life as you want to be. Please keep us updated.
And also enjoy the pictures for me, ok? Love you!
Hey all! I'm going to the hospital tomorrow for a biospy of my tymus gland. Never even heard of it til last week. I'll probably be spending the night and will be back online as soon as I feel better. Lets all do a shot and say a prayer my cancer is not back! It's a pretty scary surgery in the morning, c-ya soon!