Kaci's Official Blog Post #2: Quick Thoughts.
These are a few quick things I needed to write down, because I'm not in that great of a mood.
And this is a simple way to vent.
You'll also get to see what my day was like in some parts.
So really it kills two birds with one stone.
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So here it goes.
I thought of you while watching "Wicker Park". I wish I didn't.
For some reason I always think of a certain person when I watch that film.
And I don't think it's the person you guys are thinking of.
Is it bad that I still think of old loves?
I'm sure people always wonder about what-ifs.
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"It took one year, but I don't hurt anymore. I no longer need someone to define who I am." - Whenever I read, I stopped.
I don't want it to take a year.
I want to be sure of who I am, with or without someone.
And I think having a kid will make me a better me.
Or at least I hope it will.
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IIII/ IIII/ IIII/ IIII/ IIII/ IIII/ IIII/ II. -When I went into the bathroom at a restaurant today there were 37 tallies.
I wonder why they were there.
Usually people would right there names on a stall or something.
That way it means something to the people who read it.
But that tallies couldn't be translated to me.
I don't know what they mean.
I guess I'll wonder for a long time to come.
I wonder if they stopped, or if it's still going?
Is it the number of times, a girl and a boy have been on a date at this place?
It's a weird thing, but interesting to me.
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I wrote this a few years ago.
And the fact of the matter is
that the old saying about turning into
our parents always comes true.
We resent them as we grow up
for different reasons but fate
already stepped in a long time ago
and unfairly decided that
we were going to hate ourselves.
I'm really afraid of turning into my mother with my own kid.
Not that she was a bad mother, but we never got along and always butted heads.
And I hated her with a passion growing up.
I don't want my son to hate me.
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I think that's all for now.
Thanks for reading NDN family.